Saturday, February 02, 2013
I found out on thursday that some of my meds are causing weight gain as a side effect. There's nothing I can do except continue to take them to improve my mental health and then we will gradually get me off them when not needed anymore. While I take comfort in knowing that there is a reason for the weight gain and I am not doing anything wrong, it still is disappointing as I felt like it was a hopeless situation. Hope was I to continue my journey now? What's the point? Why bother? Why is this happening to me? All these thoughts were running through my head all day yesterday...hence I ended up doing alot of NOTHING.
My good friend and coach Amy, said something to me that really woke me up. She said "Stop it!" The negative thoughts and feelings would get me nowhere. She said to focus on making healthy choices in my everyday life...my diet, workouts, positive thinking. All these play an important role in not just losing weight but making a healthier lifestyle for myself. There is no time limit on this journey. By focusing myself on good daily routines I can perhaps slow down or even stop the weight gain until I can eventually get off the pills. In the meantime, I need to do everything I can to work on getting myself out of this rut. Continuing my daily morning bible studies, seeing my therapist, taking the pills, and positive thinking. I am grateful for a friend that does sugar coat things. She tells it like it is and I needed to hear it!
The pity party I had planned for myself was def not going to help me in my weight gain. It would have probably contributed to it. So I am officially cancelling the pity party! I am not just a number on the scale! I am not just a pant size. I am not just a bmi number. I am worth the hard work and determination. i am worth the extra effort. So if you are reading this blog and find yourself in a similar situation or just stuck in a rut...please tell yourself this: "I am worth the effort!"