Saturday, February 02, 2013
Alright, folks, this is getting frustrating. Today was the first weigh date where I actually had a goal that I wanted to reach. And if memory serves me correctly, it required me to lose something like 1 lb in two weeks. Did I manage it? No. I've been working really hard this week and haven't lost anything. I haven't really gone up, but I've plateaued (and been there for about a month) and as I'm sure many of you know that is more frustrating than anything. What's really annoying is that on Tuesday I was feeling pretty good so I stepped on the scale to have a look-see what the case was and it read 154.3! That was 1.2 lbs down from my Saturday weigh in. Needless to say, that gave me some hope for this morning's goal. But when I stepped on the scale first things this morning it read 160.4. I know my scale is ridiculous sometimes and tried stepping on it again about 20 minutes later, at which point the scale said 155.6. What the heck is THAT about? It's just getting frustrating and really discouraging. Not to mention, with the week I feel I've been having, I was so looking forward to seeing some scale success.
Anyway, on to the question at hand: my weigh days are usually on Saturday, which is my rest day, but I'm wondering, should I be weighing myself AFTER my rest day? Effectively giving my muscles time to relax and come down from any inflammation they're suffering due to my week's workouts? I've experienced this before, so that's why I ask. Last night (and for most of the week, really) I was in a fair amount of pain because I feel like I was really pushing myself this week. Plus, this was the first week of the "max interval" month for Insanity. Maybe it's like when I first started Insanity and my muscles weren't used to it but by about the third week I saw a difference in weight. Do I just need to wait it out for my body to adjust to it?
What this morning comes down to though is that I'm feeling really disappointed in myself. I feel like this was a goal I should have been able to meet. It was small, it was reasonable, it was simple. The past few weeks I've just been so tired of seeing 155 show up on my scale and my goal weight seems like a silly goal that I don't really believe I can reach. I want to reach it, but it seems far away. Being at a plateau for a month's time is really bothersome. I haven't had any weight loss success in that time, despite feeling like I'm getting stronger and losing more. And I know it sounds vain, but I'm at that point again where I just wish someone would say "hey, you look like you've lost weight!". That outside validation from people can be extremely motivating. But I guess all I can do is wait and keep pushing and keep trying for that goal. I know it's not good to surround yourself with negative thoughts, especially about your own goals, but some days it's hard to be positive. I'll try my best.