Saturday, February 02, 2013
Well 2013 is upon me already, and I'm still trying to get things figured out.
I had my shoulder surgery on January 3rd. Doctor said to expect about 9 months recovery period. I am doing physical therapy 3 days a week, and I know this will be a long and slow road to go. I am working very hard to keep a good attitude, but it is very frustrating.
First of all, this is my Right Shoulder and I am Right Handed. It is amazing how much you depend and rely on your Dominant Arm.
Here are the things I can do......so far.
I am finally able to tie my shoes, put clothes on my bottom half. Still struggling with the top half. No bras, can't deal with the shoulder strap just yet. Loose tops are OK, but anything snug, including shelf-bra cami's, I have to have help with.
I am going to Physical therapy 3 days a week, and they are are torturing me....LOL...Seriously it does hurt, to the point of tears sometimes, but it's something I have to do, if I ever want to play golf or tennis or anything.
Right now, I can't lift it very far, and still cannot wash or style my hair. I do go for walks everyday, and I have to consciously swing my arm, but it doesn't do it by itself.
My Dad left Wednesday, so I lost my chauffeur, my doorman, and my walking partner. Plus he helped do the laundry and washed all the dishes. Right now, I can't cook, can't drive, and I can't ride my bike.
I know that stuff will come, but it is just slow, and very painful.
I've read 4 or 5 books already.....LOL....and will be reading a lot more, plus I'll probably be working on my tan.
Hopefully when I go back to the dr he will let me get in the pool and hottub......incisions should be pretty well healed by then.
But Believe it or not, I have actually lost weight during all this. I am at 146 pounds. I know I have to be careful, because I cannot exercise at the level I am used to, but I don't have the big appetite, and it is difficult to feed myself; I can't cut up my food. I am learning how to use my left hand, but I assist myself with my left when I feed myself with my right.
Since I can't ride my bike or do the elliptical, I joined Chair Aerobics yesterday, under the advice of my physical therapist. Because I am still so limited with my movement, this was very difficult for me, but I pushed through and did it. There are things where I can't lift my right arm up to do, but I modified with movements I've learned in PT to do during those parts. When I finished I continued on with more of the home exercises/stretches I am supposed to be doing.
Just a year ago, I would have called this "Old Lady" Exercise, and not felt like it would be a challenge to me at all. I cannot tell you how hard it it is to do some of these "simple" movements, but they are Baby Steps and I know they will help me to get flexible and strong again. It is truly amazing to me how much strength I have lost. Even in PT, they had to reduce my dumbbells from 3lbs to 1 lb........this is astonishing to someone who could easily do 15-20 lbs.
I know my tracking has has been nil, but I have been walking outside. PT has encouraged this, especially to help me focus on "swinging my arm". Believe it or not, I have to consciously think about it to swing it; it just doesn't do it by itself, and it doesn't swing at the same gait or length as the left. I have been going 30 to 45 minutes at a time. And I will do better with logging it in as exercise. I have been doing it at least 4 days a week.
I am also trying to elimate my pain medicine.....if I can. Hopefully, I will only have to use it when I go to Physical therapy. I really had to use it in the beginning, but I have been tapering it off to only having to use 1/2 a pill rather than the 2 at first. It constipates me, so that is a very big reason I want to get rid of it.
Secondly, it doesn't really totally get rid of the pain.....unless you take a lot of it, and I just don't want to. The pain, post surgery; however is very different than the pain before surgery. Before it was chronic, extreme pain, now it is mostly sore, so I think I can deal with that.
Thirdly, I know the damage has been repaired. My therapist constantly reminds me that I had a lot of things going on in my shoulder, and just one of them by itself would have been bad enough. First, I had multiple tears in the Rotators Cuff, a SLAP tear that was almost torn completely, a level 3spur, which is the worse type of spur, and on top of all that, adhesive capsulitis, or frozen shoulder, which froze to protect all the other things. Now that the repairs have been done, I have to remember that everything from here on is progress, regardless of how slow and painful it is. And it is hard to do and remember, but I am really trying.
This process if very draining emotionally as well as physically. I will try to use my blog to help me with the emotional part, and well as using the trackers to help me keep up with my nutrition and exercise.
I have really missed being on here, and being with my Spark Friends! Thank you to everybody who has checked in on me and sent encouragement! And here's to gaining strength and a good 2013.