Good Morning Sparkers!!!

I am in full birthday countdown...3 more days until the big 38

WOW where did the time go- I remember turning 25. But I am not in a midlife crisis mode more of a wish I had committed to this journey sooner mode. If I had the body I have now in my 20's It would have been dangerous to say the least, but I have learned to not dwell on the past or live with regrets. That being said I have really enjoyed my life thus far and can not wait to see what the rest has in store for me.

Birthdays do make you think about what you will do next. So I have decided to tackel motherhood one more time. WAIT- don't think I am annoucing a little one coming right now The DH mentioned having another baby a few months ago and I just brushed it off. My son is 9 and I am finally in the body I have always wanted! Did I really want to do the pregnancy thing all over again and then struggle to lose weight when I am almost 40????

I considered it but then discovered that my job does not offer any leave. It is a small organization and therefore is not required to participate in FMLA. Then my boss tells me that she may not have funding my position in a few months . So I guess that's it- no more babies for me. But then I had a conversation with my mother that set me straight ( like all talks with my mother do)

Question: Why did you not have another child before now?
Answer: My career, I was on my to the top of a corporate company and wanted to prove myself.
Question: How did that work for you?
Answer: Stress, headaches, missed out on what was really important
Question: Can you imagine your life with just one child? Will you regret not having more children? Do you regret not having another baby years ago?
Answer: Guess we are going to have a baby!

I told you my mother is super smart! So I am about 6-7 pounds away from my goal weight loss of 60 pounds. I have 4 refills left on my birth control and after that we are going to try. It does not matter what happens with work because my family and I will be ok. Plus I learned from my last layoff that I needed to save and restructure expenses so we are in a MUCH better financial position than we were last time. Just like there was no "right" time for me to lose the weight there is no "right" time for me to expand the family.

Lesson: Whatever you want to do- just do it. No excuses because you don't want to live with regrets you want to live with joy