Disappointed in Myself
Saturday, February 02, 2013
I had a small blog prepared for this morning, but it will have to wait for tomorrow. I just need to scold myself and go on a little rant, and get it all out of my system so that I can move on. And I will move on. Guilt is useless. Regret is worse. Self loathing will not be allowed. I love me.
So… *deep breath*
I'm using stress at work as a big excuse these days, and I think it's pretty much a valid one for most people, right? But I have to admit to myself that it not just that.
Oh, don’t get me wrong, I work hard at work. I'm not a goof-off. And if my friends need me, I am there!
But taking care of me? Total back-burner.
I started a "new" journey here, committing to a new Day One on Dec 31, 2012. Restarted my ticker and erased all my old loss/gain info.
It's been a month now. My total loss? A whopping 3.4 pounds. Total exercise minutes? Probably less than 10. Flights of stairs walked up? 5, max. I am really disappointed In my performance. Or lack thereof. But I'm ready to get back on track now.
So please don't scold me for scolding myself. We all do that, right? A bombardment of self recriminations. I'm hoping this will be the ONE time I tell myself off, and now I can get back on track, forgive myself, and get back to loving ME.