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Time to face the music...

Saturday, February 02, 2013

I can feel it by my clothes...I have gained weight. I will not face the frightful truth by getting on the scale, the result would make me depseparate and get me into starve,binge mode (as if I am not there already)

Today I will eat less calories than I consume.

I woke up this morning and thought it would be another bigraine day - and that scared me because that has never happened in my life before... it turned out to be "just" an average headache that goes away once I get up and breathe normally for a whilw... I am very grateful for that. Yesterday I started feeling "Not-migrainish" at two in the afternoon, but I kept feeling really exhausted and faint for the rest of tha day and crawled to bed early. Had a nightmare, woke up hysterically scared and could not go back to sleep. Red too long, it was probably tha who caused the morning headache today.

But now I am ok although a little desperate over this weight. I might have gotten my first booking as a stand-up comedian, that is also very scary, it is not until the last of april... on thursday I will have a sort of stand up as I will act as a "theatrebeaver" at a conference. There should be three minutes and it should be!

I have also decided about my summer character... we are doing "Häx Factor" and I will be the acnchor and I have decided to become something like Dame Edna...I can have a lot of fun with that! I have already written my entrance song and plan to shoot flashes from my hands... a lot of net shopping from magic trick stores... it might be good.

Tuna and egg salad for lunch, with yoghurt dressing instead of mayonaisse...
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  • SILLYHP1953
    I just discovered a book by JJ Virgin called the Virgin Diet and the symptoms you describe remind me a lot of what I've read in the book. She says for 21 days to stop eating seven of the foods that people are most intolerant to: gluten, dairy, eggs, sugar, soy, corn, and peanuts. My first reaction was WHAT CAN I EAT? But actually there is a lot. Migraines are a symptom of one of those foods, but I don't remember which one. The inability to lose weight even when we think we're eating ok is another symtom of food intolerance. I've only managed about three days in a row because of my kids coming to visit who live far away, but I'm getting ready to try it again this week. The book talks a lot about our body chemisty and makes a lot of sense. After the 21 days then we can start allowing one of the foods at a time back in and should be able to tell immediately if our body has a reaction to it.
    1789 days ago
    Better start now than to start when you've gained more! You can do this! I believe in you!
    1840 days ago
    i have to face it to. i have been overeating mindlessly so of course i am gaining weight.
    1841 days ago
    I think you're doing fine; and I have no doubt that your show will be hilarious. I love stand up comedy; good luck to you. Maybe you can do a skit on SP video blog for us...just to practice...
    Have a great day! emoticon
    1841 days ago
    I'm sure you can get back on track. I bet your routine will be a hit. You are strong and you will succeed.
    1841 days ago
    you have the tools to make the right choices - eating less calories than you consume. it's a good day to start fresh! your plans sound so exciting and creative. you can do it, just one step in front of the other...
    1841 days ago
    You're right. You don't need the scale to pull you down. You know how to eat and it will get you there if you make good choices. Shoot for good health and the weight loss will follow. I'm wondering if you have sleep apnea (having trouble breathing when you sleep leaving you exhausted the next day). Might be something to look into; could contribute to the headaches too. I for one am less likely to make good choices when I'm tired. Yet another reason to get the weight off. You have to care enough to get healthy. emoticon emoticon
    1841 days ago
    It seems that the migraine and headaches don't limit your creativity!
    Please don't be desperate over your weight. Just try to have faith that you WILL find your way with it.
    (If you ate a lot of saltish foods like you mentioned you probably are also weighing more because you are retaining water).
    1841 days ago
    I think it's great that you're here even though you're stressed about a little weight gain. I would have been tempted to run away. Being here is half the battle... the rest can be tackled one step at a time.
    1841 days ago
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