Saturday, February 02, 2013
What do you mean itís February already?!! Iím not ready for February Ö Iím not finished with January yet! Or said another way, I meant to post this blog before January ended. Sigh!
Iíve continued to play with my treats here and there, which caused my trainer no small amount of stress as he watched my caloric intake fluctuation from day to day. THAT ended yesterday! Since I canít seem to choose a day here and there but have made treating myself an everyday occasion, weíve decided to stop that behavior all together for the time being. Over-indulgence has no place in my current plan. Once I can demonstrate a willingness and ability to stay within my calorie range, then we may re-introduce treats. This works well for me because I am an all-or-nothing kind of gal. By ďallĒ I mean all the sweet treats I can cram into a day! By ďnothingĒ I mean nothing sweet that would start the same landslide behavior. [Note: I realize this may sound a lot like deprivation but I prefer to think of it as behavior modification.]
My trainer and I have had to scale back my training slightly and take a different approach. Weíve gone all out for 21 months, but for the last month weíve stuck with lighter weights and more reps. If we go for more weight, then we reduce the reps. Because I suffer from clinical depression, Iíve experienced a few meltdowns in the recent past, some of which occurred during my training sessions. Whether it was the training that caused the meltdowns or the depression will never be fully known. I tend to believe it was the depression that caused me to begin crying uncontrollably in the middle of a training session since this was also happening at work for no apparent reason. My personal trainer is the consummate professional Ö he took these crying spells in stride and switched from asking for more dead lifts to asking me to breathe deeply, slowly and with my eyes closed. He talked me through the episode and calmed me down. I wish I could say it only happened once, but unfortunately it happened on several occasions. It should be noted I am a firm believer in ďif itís worth doing, itís worth running into the ground.Ē Yet, while training I have never suffered an injury. I believe I was in a weakened state and vulnerable when the crying occurred. Thatís my story and Iím sticking to it.
Even with my indulgence in all things sweet and scaling back on my training a bit, I have managed to lose another five (5) pounds toward my ultimate goal of ninety (90) pounds and my short term goal of thirty (30) pounds before my 59th birthday. I have 13 weeks to lose twenty-three (23) pounds. Itís a lofty goal, considering I lose weight at the pace of a snail. But it is still my goal. I will continue to eat healthy meals and work out 4-5 days a week as I move toward reaching my goal. At the end of 13 weeks, I will be flying from South Florida to Virginia to visit my oldest brother. We havenít seen each other in over 4 years! I am so excited about the trip!!! Even if I donít make my goal, I know that I will be the healthiest I can be and will look the best that I can look. What better rewards are there than those Iíve just mentioned?
How are you doing on your goals? Are you forging ahead or have you indulged a bit? Are you keeping your date with exercise or are you cancelling out in favor of a night on the sofa in front of the tv? Címon, letís do this together! Letís not be like the majority of New Yearís Resolution makers whoíve already given up on their resolutions. We know this is not a resolution but a revolution Ö a lifestyle change. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and get back in the battle.
Until next time Ö