Saturday, February 02, 2013
I can't help it! But I am. And I think it's time I came right on out and said it. After all, admission is the first step.
It's an expensive habit. But I can't stop myself from spending the money. I think about it everyday. When I don't get it I feel depressed and my anxiety issues go through the roof. I feel so more relaxed when I do it every chance I get. Which is usually only in the middle of the night when everyone else is asleep. And only on nights when I don't have to work too late.
Feeling the burn every chance I get, the sweating, pulse racing, heart tapping out a fast thud-thud-thud in my ears. GOSH. I love it.
And after I get done and I am going home, I feel SO energetic and happy. I can't stop smiling. I sing to the radio at the top of my lungs and feel like shouting with joy.
But hey, I've heard exercising could do that to you. So I know I'm not the only one.
I'm not into sweating. I hate letting people see me sweat. But when I get a really good work out in, my body literally sings with pint up energy. My mood is lifted so much. I am loving every minute of it.
Where has the gym been all my life!? I have always loved walking but the heat gives me migraines and the cold air sets fire to my lungs. But the gym, with it's controlled temperature, is just the right environment for me to get in there and do my thing.
I went a mile on the treadmill and a mile on the bike tonight. Plus some strength training. I would have went for more, and was a little disappointed that I didn't, but my cell phone battery was dieing and even in a small town I dislike being without it just in case. Especially with the 15 minute drive back home down what some would consider back roads.
I have hated that I couldn't go but once this week and even then didn't feel like I got that great of a workout in. But to be back inside those four walls, walking and doing the bike.. It was like I was a druggie who had just got a fix.
I admit that I literally feel an emotional high whenever I get my work out in. I never imagined that happening to me. I never thought that I would get this much into the gym. Not that I actually freak out about NOT going. But I can tell a difference in my moods when I don't.
Is this unhealthy for me to feel this way about exercising? Not sure. And to be honest I don't care. I don't take it to a crazy level. And I've always had an addictive personality. So I know how to control my weird urges. But I am just so happy that I can actually say that I am addicted to working out. I am addicted to that emotional high that I get every time I get a good workout in. I am loving the high. I am loving what it is doing to me body (In a healthy way).
Anyone else have the same "addiction problem"? Admitting it is the first step to a better you ;)