Saturday, February 02, 2013
Today (I'm writing this at midnight on 2/1) is the 2nd day in a row that I haven't binged. Yesterday wasn't so hard because it was the first day and I figured, it's just one day. Also, having eaten so much yesterday my stomach hurt and I felt so disgusting and fed up with myself, day 1 wasn't so hard. I worked yesterday and did some fun errands with my husband after work, so that helped distract me. Plus, I had one of my favorite "good" foods for dinner, which I looked forward to all day, so that helped me stay focused and I felt full enough. Having a "good" but tasty and satisfying dinner to look forward to really helped me keep my eye on the prize and made me feel like I could actually do it (do it meaning resist the urge to binge). Even though it wasn't the beginning of the week and I wouldn't be able to make my weekly exercise goal I still did my Jillian Michael's kettlebell DVD because I'm changing my thinking. I used to think all or nothing, but I realized after reading a response on a post from the message boards that I don't need to be perfect in revamping my habits and give up if I don't do it perfectly, I can make small strides, mess up, fall short of what I expected of myself and it doesn't mean that it doesn't count at all - I'm still making progress and more importantly, I'm revamping my habits. Some is better then nothing. I'm the queen of starting fresh next week if I can't do my entire fitness goal but this time I'm also focused on improving my habits and "starting fresh next week" when I don't do it perfectly is a bad habit. Making improvements and small changes at a time is still good and still counts, even if I didn't do as well as I wanted to.