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What the HELL Is It About Two Weeks?!????!?

Friday, February 01, 2013

I seem to be abe to do great on my eating for 2 weeks. Every time. And then I start prowling. Especially in the evening, after work. Even if I'm not hungry, I start thinking about what I can eat.

Smartly, I don't have any of my red light foods in the house. But that means instead of eating something I really want, I "settle". Out comes whatever I can find, like my husband's box of generic, reduced-fat Ritz crackers--and I start eating them. And eating them. And EATING them--and the worst part about it is, all the while, the conversation is going on in my head. "What are you doing? Why don't you just STOP? Put them AWAY! They're not even GOOD. You're not even HUNGRY. This isn't helping you reach your goals ..." and I keep right on chewing. That night I went straight thru 2 SLEEVES of those nasty crackers!

The morning after the latest episode, I even told my husband what I did, and I told him the little ditty about just because I got a speeding ticket doesn't mean I have to drive around breaking every traffic law I can for the rest of the week. See? I have the right words inside my head; I read enough motivational stuff and informational stuff to have the tools.


The one that tortures me most often is "you can't stop eating too much until you figure out what's eating you." Ugh.

I haven't comPLETEly blown it since the 2-sleeves-of-crackers-in-one-s
itting, but I'm having trouble getting completely back on track. Today's menu was a banana on an english muffin for breakfast; 2 bowls of homemade chicken rice soup for lunch; and a Cherry Garcia Peace Pop for "dinner". I feel bloated, ugly, un-disciplined, and a little bit hopeless. I know what I want to do is possible, because so many others here have done it--and more. And I've done it before. So why not now--what's so different?

No real point to this blog; just getting how I'm feeling on the record. Thanks for reading.

P.S. I've still only missed 2 days of my exercise streak since I started again. That's something ...
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    Last time I caught myself getting ready to do that, I got online and hit my Spark panic button and chatted with other sparkers until I felt like I was back in control. It's always worth a try. And great job sticking with the exercise even with the cracker stumble. Its still forward progress!
    1813 days ago

    1814 days ago
  • GOIN4GR8
    Thank you all for your constructive feedback. MissJacque, a cherry garcia peace pop is heaven on a stick--it's a Ben & Jerry's frozen black cherry yogurt covered in dark chocolate. :-) 250 calories and 14g of fat. Definitely a once-in-awhile treat!

    It helps to hear that you had a similar day, 4LABLADY ... funny how knowing we're not alone in our struggles makes them easier, isn't it? And I also had no loss in Week 2. Even though that's my pattern--losing every other week--it's still disappointing.

    I don't even THINK about eating veggies when I'm prowling, but I did have some sunflower seeds in the house. Next time I'll try those.

    KUTEY5041 & STARL_73, the problem isn't really depriving myself of sweets, because this time I'm not "dieting"--I'm just trying to eat better and stay in my range. But I do have a little something sweet now and then.

    Hmmm, MOMMASLILGUNNY, soda--I *have* started drinking diet Coke again daily. I know that's not helping--thanks for the reminder. Time to cut that out again, I guess.

    That menu I put up yesterday wasn' a day when I'm "trying"--it was more of a "what the heck" day. Could have been worse, I suppose.

    Anyway, thanks to you all, I'm climbing back on the wagon today. No giving up, right?!!

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    1815 days ago
    I was going to say the same thing STARL_73 said. Give yourself some wiggle room. Eat those things you love. Just don't eat them all the time.
    Are you drinking soda (any kind)? Becasue the sweetners they use in sodas cause you to crave more of the stuff that is bad for you like sugar. And although crackers aren't sweet they are loaded with sugars. I have noticed since I stopped drinking the sodas and after I was finished going through the withdrawls I didn't crave the sugar any more. Now if I want a cookie. I have a cookie. And I can stop at just one now where as before I would eat the whole package.
    Keep at it. It will come in time.
    Best of luck
    1815 days ago
    What is a cherry garcia peace pop? May I ask where are your snacks? Are you drinking water? From just reading this blog, are you getting enough calories in? Sometimes we mistake our bodies asking for water for food. When the munchies come calling, I drink a glass of water first and see if that takes care of it. If not I have pumpkin and sunflower seeds as well as cherry tomatoes and baby carrots to grab has helped. At night if it is true munchies (usually cause I haven't eaten enough in calories) I make air-popped popcorn with nothing on it. I also have pictures printed out and taped to the cupboards and fridge that inspire me to stay on track.

    Change is hard, especially if it's something we've done for a long time. It takes time to make these changes part of our lives. Little steps in the beginning will lead to bigger steps and eventually running. The key is to not give up, not let one oops trip you up and keep you down.
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    1815 days ago
  • KUTEY5041
    I am having the same kinds of problems. I have not really wanted any kinds of sweets in so long but now that I have started this diet, it is all that I think about. I am craving something sweet constantly. I did not do that at all before I started back on sparks. I feel like it is an internal sabotage. I don't know what to do. I keep trying but I cannot get these terrible wanting something sweet all the time to go away.
    1816 days ago
    Ugghhh, it's like we had the same sort of day. I could had written the same blog only substitute Atkins carmel nut bar for Ritz crackers. It started with a morning weigh-in with no change even after all my healthy goodness in the last two weeks. Add that I notice Fridays give me problems -maybe it's a celebration thing?----ughhhh again! Let's get back on the wagon and start tomorrow.---shoot for consistency and accept the little stumbles. Over time a little sucess will come. At least you kept the exercise streak going!! emoticon emoticon
    1816 days ago
  • STARL_73
    Are you perhaps going too low on calories? Are you within your range? If you are working out, you shouldn't be eating at the low end. Do you have it set for extreme weight loss (2lbs a week)? If so, you may want to give yourself a break and change it to 1lb or less. This could be a way for your body to say "I'm not getting the nutrients I need!! Eat more!!"

    Or - it could be psychological. How strict are you eating? Absolutely no chocolate (or other favorite food)? If so - don't do that. Allow yourself a small serving once a week. Fit it into your plan so you don't deprive yourself

    And don't be hard on yourself. Change is difficult.. think of a river trying to create a new path. But it can and does happen.

    Keep going. Write down your thoughts - you may figure out what your particular issue is - that's what's so great about blogging
    1816 days ago
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