Friday, February 01, 2013
I have been thinking about this lately:
I have read many different profiles on this site and have heard many different histories on how we have gotten where we are. Most seem to have been heavy all their lives, or slowly gained over the years. Even a few have had major life changes that resulted in weight gain. I even have a friend who had surgery and now has a hard time keeping weight on!
To those who were thin once: I have found that I yearn to be that way again. I know how I felt being healthy and feeling..... just good. I don't know if I appreciated it as much as I should have.
I don't want my thighs to rub together. I want to be able to get comfortable in bed. I want to be able to actually do the exercises in the videos. I want to be able to run as fast as a normal person. I don't want to lose my breath when I tie my shoes. I want to stop squeezing into my pants. I don't want wrinkles in my belly from them being too tight! I want to walk, not waddle. I don't want a double chin! I want my knees to feel better again. I want to cuddle with my husband and not be uncomfortable after a few minutes. I want to be able to buy clothes that flatter me more. I want to be able to bend left and right so I can actually ride my horse correctly. I want my belly to stop pulling me forward.
To those of you that have been heavy all your life: I had these things above before I got heavy. You(and I) can have them too! You have a right to feel good! You have a right to have more energy! You have a right to be able to move your body in a normal way! You have a right NOT to have your body ache because it can't hold all your weight! You have a right to all these and more!!
I think of all the things I want every day and every time I think about breaking down, I give my self just a minute to think......Do I really want to work off this food I am putting in my mouth? Or do I want to stay on my path and keep working hard for one less day than I would have to if I put those calories in my mouth? It is up to us to change things now! And yes, we may take awhile and we may fall a few times trying, but if we are persistent and we stay focused on where we have been, where we are, and where we want to be...we will get there.