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Friday, February 01, 2013

The meeting this week at weight watchers was one of REFLECTIONS. We went over the Power of Produce...the past month with our spaces, routines and the learning process we have experienced. It was positive. I felt positive.

Then the word BELIEVE was highlighted. We must believe it in order to achieve it and over come our doubts.

I have always had a hard time with the word/faith of BELIEVE. I am more of a HOPE person. I know this.

Two members received quite honorable rewards on lost 66 pounds and the other made goal. They both commented that they KNEW they could do it....they believe(d). They did face their doubts everyday.

I left the meeting in great thought. I felt.....quiet.......happy for them....proud of them.....but....depressed for me. What is wrong with me? Why don't I believe? Why do I do well for a time ..then regress?

The answer popped in my head and took my breath head was legs got weak ...and I had to shut my mind down for the time being. I didn't want to acknowledge it....even though it was so simple and yet so hard at the same time.


That is my thought process.....EVENTUALLY......

I KNOW I CAN.....EVENTUALLY....just not now.....but EVENTUALLY....

I put it off ......because I KNOW i CAN....just not NOW. it is the false security that i have done it before...and I can do it again...EVENTUALLY.......

How sad is that? Some have grief...illness..... fear of success.......lack of knowledge...but mine is .....EVENTUALLY......

Cards on the table......

I wasn't ready to change....completely......

I felt small.....ashamed. I was working on my routines...I realized that for several weeks now.......I have been tracker quite frankly is one to be proud is complete.....and there are not any upside down smiley faces to indicate a bad meal...choice...or day. In the past...I would even NOT track.....I would write for the day.....NOT GOING THERE! ...and I didn't.

My EVENTUALLY FINALLY here! It has been for quite sometime...only...I didn't even REALIZE or acknowledge that fact because I am so use to my old ways. They have been apart of me for so long ....I continued to THINK they still were.

Meetings are so important. When you dread it the when you NEED it the most. The ones that are seemingly doing so well....need to be recognized.....and to be quite there for themselves as well as other members like me.

Meetings your eyes when you least expect it.........even if you have heard it before...or not.

I guess now is the time to put my money where my mouth is and have that scale back me up. There are going to be times that may not show my NOW whether it is fair or not...but as the old promise goes...

THE CHECK IS IN THE MAIL.......because........I truly UNDERSTAND myself and that has been my biggest obstacle......myself.


Member Comments About This Blog Post:
MOULEE1 2/5/2013 2:23AM

    What a great and thoughtful post. A joy to read. You can do this.

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VEGEFARMER 2/3/2013 9:07PM

    I believe and whats more I believe in you my dear Bud. :)

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GEORGE815 2/2/2013 6:06PM

    I remember some positive thinking books I would read many years ago. One of the statements was, Whatever can be conceived, believed, can be achieved. I have used that statement throughout my life. I have achieved many things that I used to think I had to path. Good luck.

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FUN2READ 2/2/2013 11:19AM

    it's hard to be truthful with yourself but you "eventually" come around to doing it. Good work! emoticon

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HOLDINGMYOWN 2/2/2013 8:56AM

    Having OTHERS beleive in us is great and gives us a boost to carry forward~~~BUT~~~
Having ME beleive in ME~~ ( YOU Believe in yourself ) gives us the last puch we need to carry forward to the end!
emoticon PAL....
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AEHEGE 2/1/2013 8:48PM

    Great blog; well said!

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FITLIKENIC 2/1/2013 8:41PM

    emoticon Very Insightful. We do need to believe we can... Having others believe in us is a gift, but knowing, admitting, following through needs to come from within.

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PEGGYO 2/1/2013 8:39PM

    I believe.

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