Desperation or Dreams
Friday, February 01, 2013
The last couple of weeks have just fueled my depression, as I realize that I got to get a job soon, so that I can continue to pay the bills. I really don't want to do much about finding a job, seems it should just come to me with my qualifications and having been looking exclusively for 2 months, was looking before also.
Today, about 5pm, I finally decided to motivate myself to get up and do some work on SP. This was after reading a couple postings on line while laying on the couch. Thanks to all my Spark buddies, I have danced to the radio, did a stretching video, answered some spark mails and posted or responded to several messages. I know I can persevere through this life challenge. I know God is looking out for my best interest, yet my patience & perseverance is not that of God or Job. This is only to remind me that God controls my life. It is to remind me to rely on his strength and wisdom.
You could probably see why a person would get down if you saw my job journey this week. Monday, I had a phone interview with HR for a job of my "dreams" that I have only interviewed multiple times for over the last 7 years. Tuesday, I found out that I got a interview with the managers for the above mentioned job. By Wednesday, I had been notified that the managers did not feel the need to interview me again, but would compare my previous interviews with the current candidates. (I am hoping this is good news.) Very anxiety producing.
I had also applied for a "desperation" job, not one that I truly wanted but one I would be willing to work to pay the bills. I went to my interview on Wednesday, at the time the director set & she was in a meeting that lasted another 40 min. When she came out, she came up to me but didn't introduce herself-I guess I was just supposed to know who this stranger was. When I explained to her that I had applied online, she told me that I would need to fill out a paper application also. (Why couldn't I have done this while I waited.) Because I wasn't ready at that time, instead she took the walk in applicant for an interview. I left my paper application and resume with the secretary and walked out of the building 1 hr and 10 minutes after my interview was to begin, without being interviewed. (I will not go back there.)
Good news is that I do have a couple staffing agencies that sound like they could probably keep me busy with some odd jobs around town. I will get back in touch with them on Monday.
Anyone know a good patience transplant surgeon whom needs a write off for next year. I could really use more patience as mine is all used up.
Thanks again to all my SP buddies whom just reading their posts was enough to get this tired worn soul out of bed and moving.