Friday, February 01, 2013
I can't believe I have been on this site for a whole month! And I've been active! I think that's the trick for success with this site; is to be an active member even if it's just tracking your calories or your fitness minutes. Also writing blog entries, and communicating with other members does wonders.
When I was part of this site last time, I would occasionally write something and comment on other peoples blogs. But then once I hit a block in the road I would be to ashamed to log in and write about it. I would compare myself to people that have had success with this site, and feel like a failure...even though I wouldn't look into the journey they went through to get here. I always forgot that everyone is the same, and we all have issues.
I was also ashamed that I had to join a site in order to lose weight. I felt ashamed because I couldn't do it myself, and I didn't know who to turn to. I didn't even tell my husband that I had joined because I thought he would think it was stupid. I let that interfere with me putting myself first, and waiting until the middle of the night to enter stuff on here. That obviously wasn't a good idea, because I would be too tired/unmotivated, and so I would lose interest.
This year I told myself not to shy away regardless of success or failure. And I'm glad I haven't. I have basically been very honest with my writing, and it feels great. I appreciate every comment I've received on here, and every friend I have made in a month's time.
I'm also proud of myself for telling my husband that I joined Spark People. He thought it was great that I had found a place where I can get the support that I need, and resources all for free. I knew deep down that he wouldn't judge me, but it was still scary telling him. It was weird admitting that I needed help when he knows me as someone that never asks for it.
So, because of all of the support I had a great January! I've gained insight to what works for me, and what I need to work harder on. I was able to learn how to relax and not let things get the better of me, especially at work where there can be so much drama. I've made great friends, and I've read amazing journal entries about members struggles and success.
The biggest thing for me was that I actually lost 4 lbs, and a total of 4.5" inches with just tracking my food intake! And I'm still getting used to a new lifestyle, so I'm excited to see what happens when I make more changes and get back into a regular workout routine!
As for my major February goal it's to cut back, or stop eating fast food completely. Last month I started to eat a lot better, and whenever I had some fast food it would make me feel so gross for 48-72 hours. You would think that would be enough so I would just stop eating it, but I can't. I love how it tastes so much, I'm still willing to go through pain just to have it. I know, it's so sadistic. I'm hoping this month I'll be stronger willed, and eventually I just won't have the craving for it.
So yes, that's my big goal for February: to get over fast food. It will be quite the battle, but I'm sure I'll come out victorious! I think.