Friday, February 01, 2013
I took money out of my saving account to pay the end of the month bills. But, I now have less than 20 dollars in my checking account. I will have to put my groceries on my credit card which already has around 30 dollars on it.
I know that people say that money doesn't make a person happier. But, I think being able to go grocery shopping without worrying about the bill would make me happier. I think that owning a car so that I could drive to the store on a cold day like today rather than riding a bus to the store would make me happier. I think being able to afford to buy a potential book reviewer a free copy of my book would make me happier. I think being able to live in an apartment that has a wash machine, dryer and bath tub would make me happier. I think having the money to invite a friend to eat with me at a restaurant even if it is McDonalds would make me happier than I am now. I can't seem to think of free things to do with my small list of friends. If I made more money, I could give more of it back to God as my way of showing him that I trust him. It makes me mad when I see or hear someone claim that money doesn't buy happiness because having the things that most people take for granted does help a person be happy. I barely have enough money on me to pay for my stupid laundry. Every thing costs money. Food. Shelter. Phone calls. Clean clothes. Internet. May landlord covers the water and heat. So they almost don't cost me money. But, I know that my rent has part of the expense of them.
I want to buy a car in the spring but I would have to withdraw money from my mutual fund. If I do that, I will not have an emergency fund. I will really be living from paycheck to paycheck. But, if I don't buy a car I will not be available at certain hours at work. I know that I would get more hours at work if I owned a car. What should I do? I asked God for a miracle but I suspect I shouldn't do that. I have only asked God for miracles when a person or two needed a healing. I think God may have answered one of those prayers. Although it may have been the placebo effect instead of the prayer for him. I better go since I need to go grocery shopping soon. I am in a better mood than this post sounds. I was just in the mood to rant some and don't have another place where I am anonymous. (I used my real name on facebook and my blogs)
March addendum: I was happy today because I knew that I would get a paycheck and be able to pay all of my bills off. I mentioned it to my supervisor twice. She probably thinks I am weird but I just love it when I have no bills. Let excuse for me to worry. (Can you tell that I am a worry wort?)