Feeling down about hypothyroidism
Friday, February 01, 2013
Everyone on SparkPeople has a goal of being healthy. I reached a healthy BMI and I thought I'd be set for a long while. I kept the weight off for over a year and was keeping up on my healthy eating habits and exercise. My blood pressure was down, my blood sugars were great, virtually every piece of blood work was exactly in range. I was taking care of my body and thought it would love me back.
No matter how hard we work to take care of our bodies, they will sometimes do things that no amount of exercise and healthy eating can take care of. I have hypothyroidism. I am relieved in a way, because I have been feeling crummy for several months but rationalized away many symptoms. I’m a working mother who is caring for a chronically ill husband—of course I’m exhausted! Now I just need to wait for the meds to kick in and hope my doc finds the right dose quickly.
I am quite down about this. I'm a bit of a control freak and this feeling of being out of control with my body is really hard. I have watched helplessly as the scale has skyrocketed. I am no longer within my goal weight range and have slipped back into the Overweight BMI category. My mind says I shouldn’t obsess because this is part of the disease, but it’s really hard not to. I will take the weight off as my body starts to get straightened out with meds, but I still feel like a failure right now.
Doctor’s orders are not to exercise as vigorously as I have before and I feel lazy because I’m enjoying the break a little bit. I’m terrified it will turn into an empty excuse. Perhaps I should try to get back to 3 days a week at the gym but not as intense. I just need to be patient and get feeling better and I’ll start running again. I enjoy it too much to give it up because it’s good for my body and my soul.
Here’s to better days ahead!