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I think I'm supposed to be a runner.

Friday, February 01, 2013

Really. That's all.

It seems like such a normal and casual thing to say.

"Dear, how was your day? "
"Wonderful, darling. I worked for 8 hours and had a great day. You?"
"Me too. I found out that the good Lord really made me a runner but this day has been kind of hiding it for a minute."

And maybe it is a normal thing for people to realize it? I guess I feel like I've really known it all along and I just didn't know how to go about doing it.

But I'm tired of not feeling well. I'm tired of feeling like I won't reach 40. And the sad thing is?

I won't.

Not if I continue to live the way that I live. Junk food, high blood sugars and sitting on my button isn't going to get me anywhere but into my grave faster. But that's not happening anymore. I'm not going to let it.

It's a lifestyle change. I know this. But there's so many things working against me health wise (Type 2 Diabetes, Family history of cancer all over the family... Fast food.. Yummy, yummy fast food that is so fattening that it now physically is making me feel icky..ect, ect..) I figure, I need to counteract the things that are going to be working against me if I want to live. I'm going to be living for awhile, people. I want to be able to see my kids' kids. I want to be the most awesome wife, mother, friend, aunt, daughter, and someday grandma that I can possibly be!

Don't get me wrong, this is all for me. I feel rather selfish really, because I feel like this is something I can totally own. And I naturally want to share with Koby because he's my best friend and confidant. Only I can own it though. Because no one can make me healthy but myself in regards to diet and exercise.

Also, It's stress relief and it makes me feel so much better about life in general. It's awesome. I woke up today excited to exercise. New gym clothes that fit comfortably, and hubby by my side, we walked into the YMCA today ready for some action! I walked for about 40 minutes, when I looked around at people next to me. Everyone was running.

Like, for real.

So I say to my walking self, "Bee. You should SO jog right now." and I said, "Nah. I'm cool." and then the other side says, "No. Really. Do it for 15 seconds. See what happens!! We can do it!"

I did it. And when the 15 seconds came, I said to myself, "30 seconds." and when that came, "40." and I kept doing that all the way until a minute and a half. I was so proud of myself. When I was done, it was more because it was closer to the end of my exercise and my legs started to get sore after a little bit to the point of discomfort and then it stopped when I just walked. I could tell that my body was just a bit strained. It's way of saying, "Good start. We can do this a bit then walk." C25K, here I come! Heh.

Today was just a good day. We also got to announce to our friends that Koby was promoted to a Producer at KWCH here in Wichita! (Channel 12, CW, univision) That was really great to do. I'm so proud of him. He is really such an amazing person and he doesn't give himself enough credit. I started a new thing with him that if I catch him putting himself down, I say, "You're doing it again." and I tell him (playfully) that he needs to give me one good thing about him. And if I do it, he has to do the same to me. We need to build self-image. I feel confident sometimes, but I could be so much better. So, it feels good to do this with him. He really is so amazing. He is my rock and I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. Our 1 year anniversary is Valentine's Day. Excited even if we can't do anything. Maybe we can go exercise for a nice night out. Heh...

Anyways, I'm trying to write more. This is essentially a personal/work blog. But my personal aspect of my life when awesome kind of spills over to that side, right? I'm a Blogger. That's what I am meant to do. I'm supposed to write. And while it may be jumbled and confusing and random sometimes, maybe ill help someone else like me.

And if I can do that for just one person, I think the whole journey is so worth it.


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    Bee....awesome blog. You are so do have to own it! For me my ah-ha moment was a health issue as yours was. It's great motivation to seek good health to be there for your family, friends, and loved ones....nothing wrong with that. It's never too late to start over! I started over at 55 and feel wonderful today!

    Keep it up...keep challenging yourself and stay focused on your goal. You will be successful!!

    1847 days ago
    That's the best, when you can do something positive for yourself (the running) and build up someone else too! emoticon emoticon
    1849 days ago
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