Friday, February 01, 2013
On Wednesday I had a Buffalo Chicken Ponyshoe for dinner and three large beers (for those of you not from Springfield, IL a ponyshoe is a piece of meat on a slice of bread then topped with French fries and covered in cheese). Then on Thursday I had another one for lunch followed by half a DiGiorno supreme pizza, about ten beers, and a small thing of Dibs ice cream. And you know what? Iím okay with it.
Whaaat? Ok with gorging? I know Ė gross. But hereís why I did what I did:
Iím a competitive person. I do well at suppressing it at times when necessary but for the most part I need to win. Well today marks the start of the Biggest Loser competition at work and I. Will. Win. So rather than focus on my diet or work out, I decided to let loose and pack on a few pounds.
I know, I know Ė how terribly unhealthy and awful to do to myself but itís done and I donít regret it. In fact, this binging has made me REALLY excited to start my new lifestyle. Iíve always enjoyed eating healthy but now Iím taking it up a notch and Iím switching to a clean, ďrealĒ foods diet. And by diet I donít mean ďDo this for six weeks then go back to filling my body with junk.Ē
I mean Iím going to stick to this. FOR LIFE.
Iím sick of feeling sick. I get headaches almost every day. I havenít been able to breathe through my nose in years. My skin is absolutely awful, Iím twenty-five years old and I have acne. Iím tired all the time. My nails are brittle, dull, and donít grow. I have a 44.5 inch stomach.
THAT IS NOT OK. AND IT CHANGES TODAY.
Not just because of the competition but because Iím ready to be me again. Healthy, in shape, glowing with happiness me.
I went shopping yesterday at a local organics/health store and spent way more money than I should. But on the bright side this means I donít have any money to spend on fast food should I be tempted. Iíve got food, whole, real, healthy food to last me for two weeks. Iím doing this. I canít wait to track the changes. I think perhaps Iím banking on too much happening too quickly but I believe in this. I believe I can do it, I believe itíll work, and I believe this time I mean it Ė THIS IS IT.
Iím going to treat this like an actual Biggest Loser competition. Hardcore workouts, eating healthy, and doing whatever I can to jump start my weight loss. By this time next year I will be living my best life possible.
Hereís to a new month and a new me!!