Friday, February 01, 2013
Two days ago I was ready to throw in the towel. I had gained back two pounds and didn't see how I would ever really change my life. Lucky for me, I didn't give in. I did start having period cramps the next day (too much information? Sorry!) and then the two pounds and my feeling fatter seemed to make more sense. I guess it has been a very long time since I really paid attention to my body.
Last night I went to the gym again, with less of a chip on my shoulder. I tried to remind myself that working out would help my cramps, my grumpy mood and my weight. I walked for a half hour, and when I was ready to be done, I told myself "you have nothing to go home for right now, stay and do another 30 minutes" and I did. I wish I had all the time I want to work out, and right now I know that I have more time than most (no family in the area, no significant other, no kids, no pets) but some days I still feel like I need to get the gym over and done with.
I also pumped up a workout ball for my apartment. I need a larger one, but for now I can do ab exercises on it, which I know I need. I'm also considering getting a personal trainer for a little while. I am still figuring out if I have the money for it, but I know I need help in putting together a program for strength training. Due to my back injury, I am super nervous about doing something wrong or with too much weight, and I know that I am more likely to be timid about adding weights because I don't really know how to push myself like that.
Let's review some major successes though:
1. No soda or caffeine since December 30, 2012
2. No fried food since December 30, 2012
3. No sugary treats/chocolate/candy binges since December 29, 2012
4. I have lost 10 pounds, and am already looking forward to doing the next set of measurements to see those changes
5. I have only had one moment of wanting to quit, and one weekend of locking myself in my apartment so I didn't go to McDonalds.
6. I am regularly drinking eight cups of water!
Tonight when I am at the gym, I am going to remind myself of these successes, and that I'm building on them! On one hand, the month of January went by pretty quickly, but I also feel like I was more mindful about the whole month. I didn't get too overwhelmed, wasn't terribly sad for any length of time and managed to do some cooking. Crazy!
Starting today is a program at my school. I signed up to get pledges from family and friends for a monetary donation or a canned good donation for every pound I lose between today and April 31st. I'm trying to put myself out there and allow my colleagues and family to support me through this, so I have gotten some pledges. Wish me luck!