Friday, February 01, 2013
So I started the South Beach Diet on Monday after what I thought I'd learned from Dukan, I decided this was healthier. I read up on Food combining, The Skinny Bitch, Low GI etc. but I thought the South Beach was the best and most logical, omitting "bad" carbs for the first while and then introducing them slowly later, no fruit of course and no fatty meats. I left the apples on the counter and brought cheese etc to work to snack on.
The night before last I had a big row with my boyfriend, so I went to work yesterday, and decided screw the no carbs rule and ate two muffins, came home, had loads of bread, loads of chocolate and half a ben and jerrys tub. Then we made up.
I went to work today with the best of intentions. I arrived in and a guy I work with had left a ton of biscuits in my office, delicious chocolate covered ones. I ate about 20 over the course of the morning. I came home from work, and had 3 Dutch caramel cookies, that are about the size of the palm of your hand and some more lindt chocs. I ate them quickly so I could get rid of them quickly, and ran in and threw up.
So I thought, I cannot do this anymore. This never happened before. I was never fat, and I'm not now, but before my obsession with Audrey Hepburn and Olivia Palermo's style I didn't consider losing weight. Then I did the Dukan and low and behold. Now I've put it back on and I've got some weird attitude to food.
I don't think I'll read the south beach book when it arrives in the post on Monday. I'm freaking myself out with this behaviour. I've completely lost control, all I think about is food and I try to convince myself I don't but I do. I think I talk about it too much too.
I still want to reach 7stone 4 pounds, but I'm going to try to do it using exercise and Spark counter and stop reading these crazy books. I'm super distressed right now...