Friday, February 01, 2013
Work has been really slow the past couple of days....so slow htat I actually have nothing - I mean nothing to do - most people would love that but I'm feeling very bored and that makes me snack-y.
I've noticed recently (with the help of others) that I'm very good at giving advice but I won't listen to my own.
I can reassure, reinforce, congratulate and sparkify people to no end - yet I'm hard on myself and for some reason don't believe in myself the way I do others.
I am a capable person - there are many people out there who have it off worse than I do and I need to be grateful & blessed for the life I have. I am the one who put me in the position I'm in today - me, myself & I - no one else. I have to take responsiblility for that. I am also the only person who can change the circumstances that I'm in.
So now it's time to pull on my big girl pants and rock this the way I know I can.
I could use several excuses - money, time, family, work. And I can easily beat every one of those.
1) Money - I have one more payment ($300) and I'm debt free - I can budget for healthy groceries and a gym membership
2) Time - my gym is on my way home from work - I get off the bus 2 stops early and it's right there - plus I get a 10 minute walk in on my way home. Gym time has to be non-negotiable - planned and in the calander - only a major event should pull me away.
3) Family - the majority of my family supports my decision (mom says she does - but makes the worst stuff for dinner when I visit - stating "once in awhile won't hurt" - well ya it does!) - My dad & brothers encourage me at every turn and I need to focus on that.
4) Work - my new position & office make it so much easier to focus on living a healthy life - we've just started a health & wellness program (Sprout) - and I can take the stairs to get to my floor - we also have access to a free support network and I've recently gotten a ton of information regarding living a healthy lifestyle - currently I'm reading "10 Steps to Healthy Eating" by Leslie Beck.
Now the rest is up to me - it's up to me to plan my weekly meals and make sure I have enough for lunch the next day. It's up to me to have my gym bag ready to go and to not flake out. It's up to me to not bring the crap into my house and it's up to me to say no when people offer me snacks. I'm the only one who can do this for me and that's the main point - it's FOR ME. I'm not doing this for anyone else because it won't work - I have to do this knowing that the end goal is to have a healthier, happier Stephanie