Friday, February 01, 2013
I've been in a shocked daze every since I bought my new car! I kind of feel like Charlie in the chocolate factory, being carried up and up by that magic bubble drink and trying to get back to the ground.
And sure enough, the shock is wearing off. I'm starting to realize exactly how much this car payment and the insurance is going to weigh down my finances. My plans to pay off all my credit cards are completely out the window; I'll be lucky to put back five hundred dollars over the next six months, and that's quite disheartening. It will be years before I can repay those cards, or move out into my old place, or save up for a real getaway vacation. *Sigh* I guess I always knew that it would be baby steps for me.
I still haven't gotten 100% hardcore back on track. I'm still in the 190's, which is where I've been hovering for months. I'm usually good with making good food choices even if I go over on calories. Thankfully I'm good about keeping track without using the tracker on this site. However, I'm still slacking horribly on the whole exercise front. It doesn't help that I don't have a set schedule: Some work days I get up and do stuff before work, sometimes I stay up late after work, etc etc. I'm certain that part of the problem that I'm not doing 100%, and sometimes I think it's something else more mysterious. I don't know. I won't know anything for sure until I have a solid week or more of staying in my low range, exercising, and eating healthy foods. *Shrug*
Not going to lie, my main concern right now lies with my financial status than my diet and exercise. Like - what am I going to do about my grocery shopping and staying healthy when my budget is too small for anything but ramen noodles and potatoes? Poverty is one of the culprits of my initial weight gain to begin with. That in the fact that I'm not financially able to take anytime off work until I earn paid time off in May, so what happens if I get sick or my mom needs to be taken to the hospital or something?
Sorry. I'm just so worried and it's hard to think about anything else.
Hopefully when my next day off rolls around in five days, I'll be able to take the time to get my head straight. Right now it's difficult trying to go through the motions and get things done when I'm not all there, you know? One thing buying my car deprived me of was the ability to spend my weekend relaxing and recuperating, so hopefully that will be just the fix I need to get my head back in the game and feel like I'm making progress again. Until that time it's just like I'm trying to hold sand in my fists.
Sorry I can't have a better blog, or that I've had the time to actually sit down and get to everyone's blog and comment. I promise I'll get to that really soon! Hopefully everyone's weekend starts tomorrow and is fantastic!