Friday, February 01, 2013
Over the past little while, I have realized just how paralysing fear can be. Fear of success AND fear of failure.
My best friend recently shared an article with me. It's about her father and his wife, a couple who have devoted their retirement to helping out others through Samaritan's Purse (the article for anyone who is interested in reading it: www.pinchercreekecho.com
At the very end of the article, Claus says something that really resonates with me. Because it is exactly what is holding me back right now. He says, "I think you can scare yourself out of doing anything if you think about it long enough."
And he is so right. Because that's exactly where I am right now.
I have several opportunities in front me that are related to my business. I've been offered a job as a private chef. I've also put up an ad on Kijiji that has resulted in 1 solid booking for a 50-65 person wedding, a tentative booking for a 3-day event for 15 people and a Request for Proposal for 150 person wedding.
And here's where I am: I am paralysed by fear. I'm terrified that my business will succeed. And I am terrified that it will fail. So what do I do? Nothing. I'm all talk. A lot of talk. Fear has paralysed me. And that needs to change. Since 2002 I have been talking about having my own business (in one form or another). So, Kathleen, you need to just get off your a$$ and do it.
My trip to Barbados with SEPTEMBERSPIRIT is going to be so much that JUST a vacation. It's going to be a chance to recharge, meditate, discuss, ponder, plan and decide. Because when I get home I need to have a clear idea of what direction my life is going in. Because right now, I'm just floundering.
It is still early enough in 2013 that I can do something about my fear. This has to be my year.