Friday, February 01, 2013
I'm looking at turning 40 this year, ugh!! So I want to start a new decade with a new healthy mindset. I've been doing a lot of research into chemicals in our foods and products and really taking total inventory of everything I come in contact with and I am taking baby steps to change. Last year I started really consistently eating healthy, fruits and veggies, whole wheat products, trying to stay away from processed foods, trying not to eat fast food everyday at lunch. Another thing I want to start doing, because of the chemicals in the products we use everyday, like toothpaste, deodorant, shampoo/conditioner, soap ... all these things have chemicals and I am now going to make a conscious effort to replace those products with more natural products.
Last year, for a few months, in the beginning of the year I was meeting with a friend/trainer and really made physical progress, then late summer I was meeting a friend at the gym at least once per week but that didn't last past the time change so I have gotten lazy in the last few months. I feel like I have backslid a little but I have caught myself before I let it get out of control.
I've been feeling pretty disgusted with myself for not keeping active. I had gotten to the point where I was walking and could walk a mile non stop, now since I havent been exercising and stretching I cant make it down the end of the block and back again. It really makes me sad, and feel bad for myself. With the holidays and the time change and money issues and family stuff going on I've let myself give in to those nasty depression thoughts, and when that happens I end up eating junk, and pizza and ice cream and not even walking the dog. I have noticed some weight coming back on and then i see the scale going up and it makes me even sadder!!
Even if I can get myself to the gym once/week and get my 'diet' under control then I think I can start to see some progress again.
Its a battle. I am realizing that my 30's are almost gone, I dont know what to expect, I was scared to turn 30, and ended up with a lot of life changes 10 years ago, now I have this change period coming up again and I'm making necessary changes.
... little by little ...