Thursday, January 31, 2013
My stress levels have been building, there is so much I have to get done in a day. I feel so far behind in my classes, and I only take 2. I don't understand how people can take 5 a term. I study all the time at least 4 hours a day. I would do more but I just don't have time. I have been eating good some days but others I completely lose it. I gained 5 pounds over christmas that will not go away, probably due to the couple of days I have binged this month. I have been exercising consistently 5 days a week for the last 4 weeks. I try to do 3 upper body workouts, 2 lower, 30 min. of abs over the course of the week, and I walk to school 4 days, plus run for half an hour 1 days a week. It feels good but I can't help but to stress over it too. I feel like I'm wasting an hour that could be used somewhere else. Plus I have 2 kids that need attention, food, and taking care of. On top of all that I have to clean the house, I try to do 1 part every day but it is always a disaster. I didn't even realize that I was all that stressed until I got my period 14 days after my last one, this happens to me when I am stressed for long periods of time. Oh and I haven't seen my friends socially in a couple months while my partner sees his on a weekly basis (This isn't his fault, I just have way more things that I have to accomplish in a day). I could ask him for help but he works 12 hour days and its me who is disgusted by the dirt that sticks to my socks from the floor. I get 8 hours of sleep a night, usually, I do tend to wake up a few times but I have for the past 8 years so its nothing new. I keep looking for new ways to deal with stress but I think I do every thing I can. Eat well mostly, sleep or at least rest for 8 hours, exercise cardio and weight lifting, practice relaxation when things get to over whelming. I'm also managing my social anxiety very well. I was especially impressed with my beginning of term plan for coping with new situations. I can't think of anything else to help deal with my stress load, but I have to say that the compressed feeling I had in my chest at the start of this blog is better. Writing it all down really helped me organize my thoughts, I don't even feel like eating any more.