I truly wish I knew what is wrong with me. Today I was up and down all day on an emotional roller coaster. I think it was mostly fatigue induced. I was tired, and it's truly hard to stay "up" and "on plan" when you are tired. But what can you do? You have to get up and go to work. You can't just stay in bed and sleep until you're rejuvenated. So, it was a hard work day for me mentally...but on the outside, it was a good day. I got a lot done. I dealt well with all of my clients. I went out to lunch with my co-workers. This evening, I went out to dinner with DH. It's cold...and I got chilled. When I came home, I took a hot bath. I'm all warm now. I'm not hungry at all. I definitely had too much to eat today though I have not had a binge...just a supper that was too large and one snack that was totally unnecessary.

I think after this blog I will enter my food and see what it actually tallies up to. I have a pretty high tally in my head and I've gotten extremely good at sizing up my food...so I really do know what is too much.

I really want to be on track. I really want to lose weight. My weight gain is my biggest source of unhappiness right now. So why don't I kick it to the curb? I don't know. It's just my weakness. I'm not doing well with it. I have been extremely unsuccessful in stringing together any consistency. And here I thought consistency was always my strong point. Ugh.

Okay...so that's where I'm at. Now...plan for the next 24 hrs. 1. Get 8 hrs of sleep. 2. Eat a 300-calorie breakfast. 3. Eat a 500-calorie lunch. 4. Eat a 500-calorie supper. 5. Have a 100-calorie snack. Track it all. Think positive thoughts. Stay warm. Rinse and Repeat.

Seriously, it doesn't sound that hard. It isn't. It's just the emotions that I've been fighting that are knocking me off course. Maybe the positive thinking will squelch the negative thoughts and emotions that have been plaguing me. I need that. That is "what is wrong with me." Hmmm. So, if I can win that fight, I can eat on plan without feeling the need to go to my "comfort eating zone." Hmmm. Okay. So, focus for the next 24 hrs is...do the the things that keep me "up"...sleep...stay warm...think positive thoughts...have some fun. I can do that. I think I can I think I can.

Hope you all had a great last day of January. February...here we come! Let's make it a great one! We can do this! Spark on!