Thursday, January 31, 2013
This week has turned out to be totally focused on doing training and healing work. I have been doing anger cleansing with my coach/teacher. I use EFT/Tapping for clearing obstacles and fears from the cellular memory.
This is highly beneficial to my goal here at SP, to change the way I think about myself.
One of the biggest breakthroughs ever came when I came to the realization that I have a very active inner bully. I never rebelled against my parents and always obeyed the rules. My inner child feels unappreciated and unheard and devalued. Since it wasn't okay to speak my truth, this was my perception, then I buried my anger. My inner child gave up being understood.
It has taken all my focus to be healing this.
I look forward to getting back to exercising because I love it so much. It has been necessary for me to rest a lot while integrating the new paradigms.
I am not real concerned about being consistent in recording my food right now. I feel like I know what I can eat without gaining weight. I am learning to be more conscious of what I am eating and why.
I know that what I am doing is a bit unorthodox, but I really enjoy Spark People and making new connections. it is nice to encourage one another.