Sometimes I feel like a salmon swimming upstream, but the good news is that I just keep swimming. Mostly, I felt like I was starting to come out of the funk, but then seemed to get slam-dunked back again the last couple of days.

2 nights ago, DH and I were laughing hysterically in bed together, and then the next night, I have tears running down my face for practically no reason. #crazylady

I believe it’s good for your kids to see that you aren’t perfect, and that you have ups and downs, that couples sometimes fight and sometimes they laugh together like silly kids. But I also think it’s important for my daughters to see strong female (and male) role models. And I worry that I am failing. But mostly I hope and pray that these kinds of issues (mood, anxiety, the blues, depression etc.) did NOT get passed down to them!!

I am glad I made the choice to keep logging my food this week. Even a few days of information has been useful to me. My weight seems to still be creeping up and up. I don’t very often go over my total recommended calories, but the ratios need to be improved – decreasing the fat and increasing the fiber are going to be the first things I will start working on.

In continuing my goal of increasingly quantifying myself, I found an app called Optimism. It’s a mood tracker with a whole lot more – you track stay well strategies, triggers, symptoms, make notes, create reports etc. Combined with the Nutrition and Fitness Trackers of Sparkpeople I hope to find some useful information that combined will help me ways to improve my health – on all levels!

I finally found the verse to go with my One Word theme for 2013 JOY – It is

Isaiah 51:11 (NIV)
11 Those the LORD has rescued will return.
They will enter Zion with singing;
everlasting joy will crown their heads.
Gladness and joy will overtake them,
and sorrow and sighing will flee away.