Thursday, January 31, 2013
Well looks like it has been a while since I wrote on here. Well I had a back slide and the month just flew by. back at it again, this month has been a up and down flow of emotions, after 2 years of dating and almost getting married, everything has come to a standstill. Very hard to take and especially not knowing where everything is coming from. The BF wants space to think of what he wants, well what about what I want, not going to hang around and wait too long especially since he is the one who pursued the getting married and I kept wanting to wait to make sure it was what we wanted, if some remember he had lost his wife about 8 months before I met him and didn't want to be a replacement. Some people think he may be going through Male menopause but he doesn't think so. anyway I have been a little depressed about the whole thing and have put my healthy eating off again. I ran into an old GF and we chatted a bit, she has me refocused and I started back on track once again. As the old saying goes "This to shall pass " I am worth fighting for so I am fighting to get me back. Thanks for listening, started this morning early walk at 6:30 am, a walking DVD that I plan to do everyday, 15 minutes at a time...work my way back up. Have a great day Spark friends..