Thursday, January 31, 2013
This month has been very difficult for our family, with two deaths (one New Year's Eve and one this week) as well as a work colleague who passed away recently from the same cancer I had. My oncologist also for the first time gave me stats regarding survival with my type of cancer - I always knew the 50% with no additional treatment, but even with the additional hormonal treatment I still have a 20% chance of it coming back. My dad was also in the hospital with pneumonia, high fever, delirium. Very worrying as he's nearly 91 years old, and we are so far away. I hate being far away.
So what I'm keeping from all that is (a) loved ones are no longer suffering (b) my Dad is out of the hospital and (c) I have 80% odds that I beat this thing.
Yesterday, the same day I received the news of one death and my onco's percentages, I had a workout with my trainer. SO, SO happy I did not cancel (although I strongly felt like it). I actually was able to do more than I have in a long time, and it reinforced my determination to keep at it. The oncologist also said I'm doing everything right to fight the cancer, and that I can start cardio (10 minutes a day, which works out well because I recently joined the 5% challenge!)
I've also found a new-to-me book, "The Writing Diet" by Julia Cameron. She's the author of "The Artist's Way" that I was already familiar with through my DH, but this week was the first time I saw this book. Basically, Ms. Cameron noticed that as her students unblocked their creativity, they lost weight. So she's pondered it and written "The Writing Diet" for we writers out here. I am definitely a writer by nature, so this is right up my alley. I believe it will help me focus my energies in a way that logging food and counting exercise minutes doesn't; neither one of those things comes naturally to me.
So here's to a wonderful February 2013 for all of us! I'm already looking forward to my 25th wedding anniversary, and a week at fellow Sparker Justyna7's B&B with my DH!