Thursday, January 31, 2013
I'm so incredibly depressed these past few days. It didn't sneak up on me. I just didn't see it coming.
I've been trying to kick my own butt out the door to get to the gym. It hasn't worked in a couple of days.
I'm not giving up on me just yet. I'm here to try again.
Today, going after it is to simply get dressed and get out to the gym. Do the best you can. But just do it.
Are you worth that much?
I look at what I didn't do yesterday, and I regret it. I regret not being able to do anything. I don't expect 100% out of myself today. Just SOMETHING. If I can just get out and do something. I just can't keep just sitting here doing nothing.
I can't change what happened yesterday. All I can do is change what I do today. Now.
We all know it comes down to laziness at this point. I'm not expecting to get into the gym and do a Biggest Looser Last Chance workout. I just need to have some sort of forward steps. Get there. My workout is only 20 minutes. That's it. So why can't I do that much?
How can I keep justifying just laying around the house here? Seriously? I'm not asking my body to get out and run a marathon. No where near. I'm just asking to get up off the couch and do SOMETHING!!! Just do better than I did yesterday. It won't take me long and I'll be striving to do better and better. But for today, all I have to do is better than yesterday.
So what do I decide? To sit here and keep wallowing in self pity? Or am I going to fight back? Am I going to fight for my physical and mental health? Or am I going to just sit back and let it all slip through my fingers?
Time to go start the car. I deserve at least a chance to not let this all slip through my fingers. I don't know what I can do today. But I do know I can do more than I did yesterday.
I got to the gym. I did my workout. I didn't do any extra dancing, but I did better than yesterday. That's all that matters today