Why does it matter why we do the things we do?
Thursday, January 31, 2013
I maybe had a little aha moment on my clothes shopping addiction today. I stayed the same, so did not earn a trip to the mall -- altho I am meeting a friend there on Monday to see a movie. And have a 30% off coupon at H&M that expires before next Thursday (next WI). And did see a cute dress there last weekend . . .
I had lost most of my weight before we moved to Albany & really did need to rebuild my wardrobe -- especially since I moved from a warm state to a cold one.
But mission long ago accomplished.
Oh sure, it's always fun to update your wardrobe, but my shopping certainly goes beyond that. I have plenty of clothes - altho I still struggle with dressing cute in the winter & not looking schlumpy because I want to be warm.
For a long time I couldn't wear anything delicate during the day, because Simba was not careful with his claws. Giz isn't either, but doesn't lay on me much during the day; he gets most of his cuddle time in in the morning, before I dress.
But I digress. I've known for. Long time that my clothes shopping is an addiction - an addiction that's under control, but that doesn't change the fact that it is an addiction.
My aha! Moment today came when I realized some of it is simply a way to get back at the scale. Didn't do what I wanted? I'll go out & buy myself some cute clothes so I'll feel better about myself.
It works, too. Which only makes it that much harder to break.
So, I spend within my means. Does it even matter? Of course it does. It's money I could be either saving or spending on other things. It's time I could be spending elsewhere.
So I didn't meet my weight goal this week, but I didn't gain, either. I will keep plugging away at it. I suspect TOM (which caused some nibbling the last few days & arrived early for a change) had a lot to do with that. So there's always next week, & the week after that, and . . . I will continue to work on decreasing my spending -- off to a decent start this month.
Now it's time to come up with some Feb goals, walk the dogs & do a short run I really am not motivated to do but will do anyway. Because sometimes you just do it.
I did have a NSV today, tho (this might be TMI for the guys - you've been warned!). I have a pair of boy shorts style panties, but with longer legs, that I often wear under form fitting dresses like the one I wore today. Instead I grabbed my pair of Assets (spanx from Target) that I haven't worn in forever because they always felt so uncomfortable . . . the boy shorts aren't control top; they just smooth everything out. But the Assets didn't feel so bad . . . and they definitely made the dress feel better!
When was the last time you delved into why you do the things you do? What did you discover? Did it lead to any changes?