Thursday, January 31, 2013
Ok, so I really started half way through the month... but you get the idea :)
I stepped on the scale last night and the number was the same as it was last week - down to the decimal point. However it somewhat drove home a very important thought. I had gotten anxious about what the scale would say - I didn't know what to expect, and while I hoped for a feeling of victory, I knew that was unlikely. This is exactly *why* I've never put emphasis on tracking my weight in the past. I function better when I am mindful but not under a microscope, I get anxious and risk depression or outright rebellion when I feel I am being closely watched. I know this about myself, I temporarily forgot. So instead, here are the overarching things that I have noticed -
From July through November (while I was in a very temporary living space) I was eating a home cooked meal maybe once per week. I was exercising once per week. My incidental activity was damn near non existent (especially as the weather turned colder in October) December was very oddly up in the air and somewhat foggy in my memory because we moved into our house and then dove into the holidays. I came back up for air in January and began a routine in earnest on Jan 14th. Since then, I have prepared my own meals (breakfast lunch and dinner) most days. I partnered up with my dad and step mom to get a Y membership. I've racked up 407 fitness minutes in 17 days. I'd say I got back on track.
I'm really proud of those changes, I feel like I flipped a light switch and went back to my life and it's awesome. Before July I was usually swimming 2 or 3x per week, dancing on weekends and walk/jogging on mondays and preparing most meals myself - and slowly I had been slimming down and feeling better.
This is not a race.
The weight will go away if I keep doing what I'm doing and I need to trust in that. I doubt I will continue weighing in weekly because I'd rather do it once a month or less... that number on the scale isn't important to me, and it hasn't been for quite some time. I got a bit wrapped up in the idea of "I'm trying to lose x amount of lbs" but that's not why I'm here. I know from previous experience that this is not a fast process. At a reasonable pace it should take me between 5 and 10 weeks to lose 10 lbs. March/April is a long ways away, if I keep to what I'm doing I'll probably see results by then, but not by the end of one week. I'd much rather just enjoy myself and periodically look back to evaluate and change as needed.
So, with all that said - Yoga tonight, or do I venture a go at Zumba?