Thursday, January 31, 2013
Dearest Spark Family,
Lately trying to move forward here has been going at a snail's pace and each day sometimes more bad news comes in and I am trying to receive it with dignity and class....though at times my initial reaction is to get upset as if I was just punched in the stomach.
Time is going by so fast and cost emotionally, physically and financially sometimes hard to not be paralyzed about yet what are the choices......you either give it all up & lay down and die or live to fight another day to the best of your ability. I try each day to be very mindful that we all have challenges and obstacles on our paths. I try to also see the lesson in each thing I am going through yet have to admit I am at a loss lately to understand. I know at this time I need to leave it in God's hands.
For today I am realizing that I must take one hour at a time, be content to do all I can do and take satisfaction from that and try to look at any positive aspects I can see in the day and not to take all the problems too seriously since it hinders my ability to work effectively toward a better outcome.
I praise God that since 1/1/13 the Lord and my Spark family have been helping me track my food intake to keep my awareness up and no indulge in mindless eating for stress and comfort. I also try to visit the site to the best of my ability.
Due to the long length of time I have been going through these uncomfortable challenges my objective is not to be a professional victim on any level which is what I call someone always moaning and groaning about something. I realize now that most people have to go through these trials and tests alone but having this site handy really helps a lot because we are all connected in joy and sorrow and need the support to keep all things in proper, positive perspective.
Thank you Spark Family for supporting me along with God and his heavenly angels and guides through this trial of fire I am going through.. May God give me the strength to accept my journey with class and dignity so I come out on the other side being a better person for myself but also for others.
I am also hoping that sharing this not only helps me but helps others.