Thursday, January 31, 2013
Yikes! This is me about a year ago at my largest. 339 pounds! I hate this but I realize that I need to be brutally honest in order to heal myself. I tend to be a bit of a pollyanna and only look at the good side of things, but when things get this bad you need to open your eyes to the realities. I was killing myself. I remember this day so well. We had taken a day trip to the redwoods and to the coast. The redwoods are my spiritual place where I feel closest to nature. I could not enjoy it because I hurt so much and I was out of breath walking just a few steps. I would have loved to hike the trails and enjoy the wilderness, but my big, fat body was preventing it.
I am sick of being that person and I am sick of making excuses for being that way. I am 74 pounds lighter now and I will not be content until I can go there and comfortably hike all day long.
I have so many things to look forward to in my life and I will not live the rest of my life as a cripple if I have any choice in the matter and right now I have control......I may not always but I am grabbing what life is offering and running with it!
Thanks for listening.