Holy crap, it is the last day of January!! I made it through the remembrance day of my father VERY well... I cried twice! Woo HOOO even better I laughed and smiled a whole lot more!
I will get to the goal setting in a bit.... I have to write this down and get it out of my head... I had a call last night, young woman, pregnant, bleeding. I was the only female crew member in the rig, and I got pushed aside as the paramedic and his student came on board to help. this is protocol, and how it works... They were great! But, she was in a vulnerable state... I kept talking to her, but she couldn't see me, as I was sitting behind her head.
I can relate to her loss, her pain and uncertainty. I remember my most recent miscarriage. I was home, alone and didn't know what was happening. I didn't even know I was preggers.
I guess I just wanted to be able to hold her hand... So I didn't sleep worth a crap... I woke this morning, got the kids up, ready and off. Instead of getting right to working out, I went back to bed. Slept for another hour, and am slowly getting my grove. I am sure if I had stayed up, I would be witch supreme today. I have another 12 hour on call shift tonight, after basketball practice and after a NYS mandatory training to find out how my job has changed! Ugh. I love what I do, don't get me wrong, but I still have yet to learn how to deal with some aftermath issues. Three night in a row I am on call.... Basketball game Saturday. Wow!
Anyway.... I looked at my progress (or lack thereof) I should be about 168 to reach my goal! LAUGHABLE no way!! I know that once my body starts releasing the weight, it just comes off... I guess I am just waiting for that happen. I'm a bit older this time round, maybe that has a lot to do with it.
Each week, in Feb I would like to aim for 1.5# loss. Which is about what I have been doing, just not consistently. I know I need to focus on a two week detox.... Just feeding five people on one income is kinda expensive. I know that everyone says eating healthy and clean is not as expesive as junk food... Ahhh, yes it is. We don't buy healthy and junk.... We cut out the crap, to my oldest sons demise.
I think I have a way to encourage my husband to be an active supporter that will help tremendously. The weather should start making warmer changes and getting the track ready will be another source of cardio.
I can run inside, inplace for ten minutes.... Not sure how that will translate when I am able to get outside and move, but ten minutes is freakin
Small strides... Well, off to move furniture and clean under it.
Have an awesome last day of January