I watched a movie with husband last night and he's still angry I took his night away. I didn't know it was 2 hours and 48 minutes. He ended up walking out like 20 minutes before it ended and went to bed. He's always grumpy in the winter when he can't exercise much and he is allergic to gyms. I need to just remember to give him extra space. It's just so hard to find anything to watch with him.I will watch a drama and he will be in the basement watching a batman movie that was illustrated. My new phone is coming in the mail today. I know he's more excited about it than I am . Maybe I will hide it until he starts being nice =P I know he's super excited to set it up for me. Sweet yes, but i would rather watch an adult movie with him than get a new fancy phone. This isn't serious, I am just fuming. Maybe tv isnt our strong point. Politics, children, animals, work ethic, exercise, eating clean are. No one is a 10, we just chalk them up to a 10 from a 7.2 as Dan Savage puts it.

I have been noticing lately I am not a leader. I could never be a teacher. People think if u go to enough fitness classes, then hey maybe you should teach them! NO! I like going and being directed, I don't like directing. Same with the spark group meetings. It's so frustrating to set them up and then no one comes. I don't wanna do it anymore. Someone was asking if they help me. No because we don't do them enough. And the little we do, do them doesn't make a difference cuz everytime we meet everyone is in such a different place from last time. I feel like most don't come back, cuz they are ashamed to say nothing changed in their lives. I feel let down when ppl say they are gonna come and they don't. People seem to only take weight loss related stuff serious if a cost is attached. Which is probably why WW's does so good cuz your paying someone 12 bucks to weigh you and talk to u. I wonder if they train those ppl to gasp at u when u gain.

Eating has been pretty good the past few days. After I ran 5 miles on Monday I felt good. But then I ran 3 miles on tuesday my body was starving to death. I consumed like 1275 calories by 3 pm and I was still starving. I donno what it is about running at lunch that screws me up but it send me for a loop. I ended up eating 2400 calories that night, went on a stupid binge of eating cold hotdogs straight out of the meat drawer in the fridge. Days when I don't run at lunch, I am perfectly fine, going to bed 1700-1800 calories is easy.

There is snow on the ground this morning, but the sun is out! My freshly painted room is finally lit up! The first day in 5 days I think. Have a good thursday you guys!