Thursday, January 31, 2013
This is what I have been trying to do all week and man, it is HARD!!!!
Not due to eating when not hungry but ignoring the fact that I am hungry and probably should eat something. After years and years of trying to lose weight I have trained myself to deny myself food f it was not the “right” time to eat or if I had already eaten “too many calories”, or the fact that I just had something to eat an hour ago. I think that this has really messed up my leptin and I need to start listening to my body.
I have been reading the book Weight Loss Apocalypse by Robin Woodall and watching her videos on YouTube before I do one more round of HCG and it has been really eye opening. They say the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. Well, I have been doing that for over 6 years. Eat less, workout more has failed me!!!! I have to learn a new way to deal with this or I will fail again.
It is kinda freeking me out a bit by stopping to try having so much control over my body and food. I have not weighed in all week (something she has suggested) nor am I weighing my food or counting calories. On the otherside, it is kinda freeing to not be so obsessed about everything. I know what to eat to eat healthy, been doing that for years.
I am going to try and get in to see Robin in person since she works about 45 miles away from me before I start P3 of the hormone protocol. I need to learn how to eat and exercise afterwards and how exactly leptin effects everything. I WANT THIS TO BE OVER WITH and stop thinking about my weight almost every hour of the day.
P.S I recommend this book for people who are struggling with binging and emotional eating even if they do not believe in HCG.