Thursday, January 31, 2013
I saw a lovely quote on Facebook the other day; coincidentally, it was the same day I got "clean" again:
RUNNING AWAY FROM ANY PROBLEM ONLY INCREASES THE DISTANCE FROM THE SOLUTION!
And boy, have I been running lately.
I am on day 3 (of induction) once again. Had a few "false starts" and didn't even finish the 2nd day those past several times.
That said, it feels good -- not just physically, but psychologically - probably even moreso.
I just got a letter that my long-term therapy will begin in less than 4 weeks! FINALLY! I have been waiting well over 2 years, but better late than never? I think so.
I have been seeing an "interim" counselor, every 4-6 weeks, just to check in. It helped a little, for a day or 2 either side of the appointment, but it was more of a check-in, as I said, rather than a "real" counseling session.
Our business has been outrageous, keeping us busier than ever. And we expect this month (January) to be the largest sales ever...and likely by a long shot! At least I have been keeping up with that all along.
Anyway, thanks again to everyone who sent Goodies and words of support -- that kept me in touch, even if I wasn't tracking food or posting messages. Without you caring for me, I would not be here, back where I belong.
It's so hard when I "fall off the wagon" as I feel depressed, worthless, and totally unmotivated. At least my dogs get me out of bed, and out for a walk, so that is wonderful. But the food gets so out of control... this time was the worst in a long while, with my food choices being abominable, not to mention the quantities I was stuffing into my face. :(
I want to face the problems/issues I have been running away from for so long, and learn to stop medicating myself with food.
As is said, Today is the First Day of the Rest of My Life.