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Thursday, January 31, 2013

I saw a lovely quote on Facebook the other day; coincidentally, it was the same day I got "clean" again:


And boy, have I been running lately.

I am on day 3 (of induction) once again. Had a few "false starts" and didn't even finish the 2nd day those past several times.
That said, it feels good -- not just physically, but psychologically - probably even moreso.

I just got a letter that my long-term therapy will begin in less than 4 weeks! FINALLY! I have been waiting well over 2 years, but better late than never? I think so.

I have been seeing an "interim" counselor, every 4-6 weeks, just to check in. It helped a little, for a day or 2 either side of the appointment, but it was more of a check-in, as I said, rather than a "real" counseling session.

Our business has been outrageous, keeping us busier than ever. And we expect this month (January) to be the largest sales ever...and likely by a long shot! At least I have been keeping up with that all along.

Anyway, thanks again to everyone who sent Goodies and words of support -- that kept me in touch, even if I wasn't tracking food or posting messages. Without you caring for me, I would not be here, back where I belong.

It's so hard when I "fall off the wagon" as I feel depressed, worthless, and totally unmotivated. At least my dogs get me out of bed, and out for a walk, so that is wonderful. But the food gets so out of control... this time was the worst in a long while, with my food choices being abominable, not to mention the quantities I was stuffing into my face. :(

I want to face the problems/issues I have been running away from for so long, and learn to stop medicating myself with food.

As is said, Today is the First Day of the Rest of My Life.


Member Comments About This Blog Post:
BRANDI1809 2/3/2013 5:53AM

    Thank you so much for sharing this with everyone. Hope you are both keeping well.

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MICHELLE8182 1/31/2013 10:18PM

    Congrats on getting back on the wagon and on having the courage to share with others.

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JESSBOND 1/31/2013 7:23PM

    Good luck! I'm sure you'll handle all of this! emoticon

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NEWKATHYNOW 1/31/2013 7:13PM

    Well, we've all probably been in the same spot. It's very easy to wander off track in the early days of induction and extremely hard to get back on. You need to congratulate yourself for getting back on induction! emoticon

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-LINDA_S 1/31/2013 4:53PM

    Good luck getting back on the horse! You can do it!

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KICK-SS 1/31/2013 3:45PM

    I'm glad to hear that things are looking up for you!! We're here any time....

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WOUBBIE 1/31/2013 3:36PM

    Good for you, Debb. This is a great insight.

We'll be with you every step of the way, even the sideways and backwards ones. Those happen too. :)


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ACCEPTINGME73 1/31/2013 12:50PM

    I have so much appreciation for this site. About a week ago I thought I was alone in this journey. Even though I had been a member for many years I didn't quite understand the social aspect of this site. I now have more tools such as ready blogs and getting in touch with others here. I say this because when I started reading your blog, I understood exactly what you were saying about stuffing your face, falling off the wagon, failing at induction. I am also on my 3rd day as well. I have been trying to restart induction for over a month. I hit 7 days once during this month but wasn't feeling as though I had lost enough and decided on a pity party (lasting several days) of binge eating carbs-

I had lost 53 lbs and gained back 17 or so during the holidays. That weight gain put me on a track of low self esteem and extreme binge eating. I was also feeling like a failure. I have been sleeping a lot and losing interest in day to day things. But because this site is so amazing I got so many well wishes, advice, etc and I am beginning to snap out of it. I have decided not to weigh as often, to be nicer to myself, to understand this is hard and will take effort and gentleness with myself. I cannot beat myself up so bad when I make mistakes. Why don't I give as much effort praising myself when I do well, like exercise everyday or lose 3 pounds, as I do when I put myself down when I gain a few pounds?

I am thankful for you sharing your thoughts, so those of us out here that relate to you can use it as a way to understand ourselves and deal with this journey in better self loving way. I hope to add you as a friend since we have things in common.

Way to go on day 3 of induction! You can do it!

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LIVINMYDREAMS 1/31/2013 12:34PM

    Remember that you are cared about by this team and you won't get beat up here! I know what it is like though to want to run and hide. We need each other.

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NAYPOOIE 1/31/2013 12:20PM

    Both comments on problem solving are wise. I'll try to keep them in mind.

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    I forgot the 2nd part!


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BLUENOSE63 1/31/2013 7:16AM

  That is a great quote! Thanks for posting it.

Have a great day.

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