Thursday, January 31, 2013
I have used P90X this first round as therapy... Oh and exercise is honestly the best!!!!! I feel fantastic about how far I have come emotionally in my life. I have done a lot of soul searching and know myself fairly well. I LOVE IT! However, with working out comes confidence. I have friends who also are fantastic and foster this confidence and support my goals. I am learning to deal with others in my life that are unsupportive and actually go out of their way, it seems, to belittle and degrade me. I am really learning this one day at a time. If anyone has ever read the book Boundaries, you know what it means to have toxic relationships. I am coming to learn that you can really care about people but you can not change them. I must except them as they are and except their limitations. When it comes to toxins in our lives, it's best to eliminate them but when it comes to human relationships that isn't always possible. Other options include dulution (having other quality relationships in one's life), distance (creating literal distance or emotional so it doesn't destroy you emotionally), and limit exposure (only see people as much as you can handle, truly).
I am learning... This is a work in progress. I am happy in my life! I am confident most days! And I passionately motivate others to reach their goals and dreams! I will get this. I will enjoy the quality relationships in my life, and I will work towards making the best of the more difficult relationship(s) in my life. I know that working through this will really allow me to reach all my goals in life. Also, I know that someday, when I get into a romantic relationship again (I was recently divorced) that working through this will really allow me to have a quality relationship with "him".
In the meantime, I am enjoying the self discovery! I am also enjoying being able to be independant and single at this date in time. Life is a journey!!! And with February fast approaching and 102 days until my birthday... THERE IS MORE COMING SOON!!!! Goals to be set and met:).