Wednesday, January 30, 2013
So we're going to Disneyland in a few months. This has me worried.
A few years ago, a heavier me went to Sea World with my daughter. She had won the tickets in a costume contest, and was so excited to go on the rides and see all the animals. We got in line for one of those viking boat rides that swing back and forth.
You can see where this is going.
On this particular viking boat ride, all the lap bars swing down at once. The lap bar swung down, and I immediately knew that I was not going to fit. And that there would be no way for me to quietly, anonymously slink away. Because EVERYONE'S lap bar would not lock, because of me. The ride operators swung the bar up and loudly looked around for the culprit. It seemed loud to me, anyway. I tried to get up and exit the ride, but they insisted on trying again. Everyone was staring at me now. When again it wouldn't lock, I hopped up to leave before they could ask me to.
I walked back down through the waiting area, knowing everyone was staring at me and wondering how I could let myself be this way. Maybe they were thinking they'd kill themselves before they let themselves get so large. I know people think this sometimes because I've had insensitive friends make comments about people my size.
My daughter was left to ride alone, probably feeling both sad and embarrassed.
So, although I weigh significantly less now, I am worried about Disneyland. I think it will be an excellent motivator.