Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Today turned out to be a balance. The baby woke me up early, but just early enough that I didn't have to be startled out of bed by Pantera on my phone. Got my shower, hair done and everything made it in the car before I left the house today. Even made it to work on time. Got to park in the basement so I didn't have to walk several blocks in the cold. Low and behold the last month worth of work on our shared drive was deleted and not backed up. Arggghhh!!! So I figured what a better time to go work out than a good day turned bad. I chose to turn it around instead of letting it steam all day. Yay me!! I got back from the gym after an awesome workout (that I could have kept going with if I had more time) and our IT guy shows up with chocolates to say he's sorry for messing up our work. Awe. It was an accident and he didn't mean to cause extra work. I forgive him. But, it's chocolate. My downfall, filled with caramel and red velvet cream even!! Wrapped in a pretty, glittery box tied with a bow (Valentine's day is around the corner). Even as I type, I keep eyeing it. I so would love to tear the box open and relish in its comfort, but I have done great today. Coffee, coconut sugar and almond milk; a banana, some cantelope, gluten-free crackers and hummus, and a salad. I've also almost drank a full 32 oz of water thanks to my workout making me pant. I think I'll stow his apology for later. I would say to reward myself with on a day that I've done well all week and feel I deserve it, but I'm not a damn dog and shouldn't reward myself with food. Gotta learn how to cut out all the excuses and justifications that have gotten me where I am now. To make matters worse the hubby is home with a stomach bug, probably the same one that attacked the baby this last few days. He says he's got dinner covered, a frozen lasagna. Sugar, carbs, process and cheese. Do I oblige and eat a sliver or stay true to my efforts and plate it out for him and the kids, while I mow down several helpings of veggies and maybe a piece of lemon pepper fish? I think I'm going to put myself first, even though he was being very thoughtful despite him being sick. No one else is going to take care of me, but me. It's amazing how a regular day in the life of, can be so challenging on so many levels. Decisions, decisions.