Learned Something About Myself Today (Or, how skinny people think)
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Have you ever learned something about yourself that made you think, "Of course. That explains it." That happened to me today.
We have a small fridge in our workroom where we library staffers can keep drinks, lunch, etc. I bring my lunch (and usually my breakfast) every day so I use the fridge more than most. This morning I was mildly irritated because there is a partially-eaten piece of some sort of rich dessert still there. It has been in the fridge for a week and sort of bugs me every day but today I really thought about it.
I began to wonder why this bugged me. I do have sort of a thing about not wasting food and using things up. For example, I would NEVER have more than one bottle of ketchup open at the same time. I like to use up the old thing before starting the new. I don't like clutter, and this extends to leftovers, which I try very hard to use up creatively. So, maybe that's part of it.
But I think the other reason the dessert annoys me is because it's a reminder of how easy this skinny co-worker finds it to ignore. If that was my dessert, I would have NEVER forgotten about it! I would have planned it into my calorie count (hopefully) but I would have definitely eaten it within a day or two and certainly thought about it quite often.
My thin daughter is the same way as my thin co-worker. She put her name on certain things in the fridge to protect them from her big, strapping, always-hungry brother. But then she can go for more than a week without even remembering the treat is there or feeling like eating it. It's a whole different approach to food than mine.
I don't know if I will ever have the "thin person" mindset. Maybe not. I might spend the rest of my life having to think about, plan for, and track every goodie. And if I have to do that forever, then I will, because I'm determined to be one of the 5% who succeed in maintaining.