Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Have you ever learned something about yourself that made you think, "Of course. That explains it." That happened to me today.
We have a small fridge in our workroom where we library staffers can keep drinks, lunch, etc. I bring my lunch (and usually my breakfast) every day so I use the fridge more than most. This morning I was mildly irritated because there is a partially-eaten piece of some sort of rich dessert still there. It has been in the fridge for a week and sort of bugs me every day but today I really thought about it.
I began to wonder why this bugged me. I do have sort of a thing about not wasting food and using things up. For example, I would NEVER have more than one bottle of ketchup open at the same time. I like to use up the old thing before starting the new. I don't like clutter, and this extends to leftovers, which I try very hard to use up creatively. So, maybe that's part of it.
But I think the other reason the dessert annoys me is because it's a reminder of how easy this skinny co-worker finds it to ignore. If that was my dessert, I would have NEVER forgotten about it! I would have planned it into my calorie count (hopefully) but I would have definitely eaten it within a day or two and certainly thought about it quite often.
My thin daughter is the same way as my thin co-worker. She put her name on certain things in the fridge to protect them from her big, strapping, always-hungry brother. But then she can go for more than a week without even remembering the treat is there or feeling like eating it. It's a whole different approach to food than mine.
I don't know if I will ever have the "thin person" mindset. Maybe not. I might spend the rest of my life having to think about, plan for, and track every goodie. And if I have to do that forever, then I will, because I'm determined to be one of the 5% who succeed in maintaining.