Wednesday, January 30, 2013
I've been having a tough week. I think it's mostly hormonal (PMS) and I'm hoping things will get easier soon, but the past few days have been awful. I've felt irritated, tired, depressed, anxious and bored. Not a good combo for an emotional eater! This is something that happens every month because of hormonal changes and even though I know what's causing it it's really annoying and frustrating! I've felt very low on energy and yesterday I was just in a bad mood all day feeling depressed (for no obvious reason) and really bored. Also, I usually try not to complain about the weather because there is nothing you can do about it, but I just have to get this out of my system: I AM SO SICK OF WINTER!!!!
This week the weather has been cold, grey and wet. It's either raining or snowing and I'm so sick of it, I miss sunny, warm weather; I miss flowers; I miss summer breezes; I miss the beautiful sunsets and going outside for a walk without having to wear layers and layers of clothes.
THERE. I said it.
It's hard to get motivated to go out and exercise when it's 10 degrees outside and snowing. I've gone jogging in that weather (actually, a few weeks ago I went for a jog when it was -4 degrees outside - talk about commitment, right?) but it's really hard and the muscles are cold. Today it was a "warm" winter day, about 40 degrees and rainy but I still didn't want to go outside and run. Well, in a month or two it'll be spring again. I'll just have to suck it up until then.
I've been making very bad decisions this week. I haven't been following my meal plan or getting enough exercise which is only making me feel a lot worse. I've been trying to numb my bad mood by eating too much and often the wrong things (for example, I made cookies yesterday and had five after dinner. Only made me feel A LOT worse!!). I KNOW it's not going to help and yet I choose to do it. I don't understand myself sometimes. I made a conscious decision to go to the store, buy the ingredients, make the cookies and then eat them. It wasn't a spur of the moment kind of thing; I had time to reflect on it and change my mind, but I chose not to. All I wanted to do was eat to make me feel better. Classic emotional eating.
I need and want to start making better decisions to make me feel better and more in control, but as we all know, it can be easier said than done. I'm going to take baby steps to get past this slump and move on. It'll be February in a few days and I want to start it off on the right foot. So from now on; no excuses, I'll go out every day for a nice, brisk walk (no matter what the weather) and I'll stick to my meal plan. I also need to get back to doing yoga at least five times a week! It makes me so sad I stopped doing it, it really made me feel so good, I don't know why I stopped.
I'm struggling right now to feel energetic or positive. I know it'll pass soon and until then, I'll just have to keep working hard even - and especially - when the going gets tough.
I hope you're having a great week so far!