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GOOD RIDDANCE to January!!!

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

January was a terrible month for me! I'm grateful I made it out without gaining too much weight, but there were several days there where I was up about 10 lbs from where I was January 1st. Instead of getting the "holiday blues" like some people get, I most definitely got the "post-holiday blues." A lot of it probably has to do with the fact that I had so much going on in the Fall and over Christmas that I just finally crashed. And then I hit a pretty bad depression. There were many days where before I even got out of bed in the morning, I checked the clock to see how many hours I had to go before I could go back to bed again. I encountered the severe addiction to home-made chocolate/peanut butter fudge (my Dopamine Soup). I binged. I cried. I gained. I moped around. Ugh... it was fraught with drama!! Sorry to sound so spoiled and melodramatic!

Things are looking up for February. I finally got the job I wanted and start orientation Feb 4th! I passed a major entrance exam on Monday for my degree- that was the final step before I can finish up my clinical rotation and graduate. These two events alone have cleared up a majority of the anxiety and depression I was encountering.

Also- As of this morning, I'm pleased to announce the newest member of our family! Her name is Gracie and I rescued her from a neglectful, and possibly abusive, situation. She's the same age as my other dog and they kinda look alike too. They're best friends! I can't wait to take them hiking!

I went to several grocery stores yesterday and tracked down the new Ezekiel Flax bread. I love it! Also, I found this Russian style yogurt and I'm so in heaven with it- great texture and flavor, and only 100 calories and 14 grams of protein!

I have some upcoming events that are triggering anxiety-related binge urges for me. Tomorrow I have a newcomer's social at the church that I joined. It will involved wine (it's Episcopalian), and spaghetti. Also, socialization... which freaks me out. So I have been fighting off binge cravings. Also, on Saturday I have a kid's bday party to go to (Bday cake is my biggest temptation). And then Sat night I have a play I have to go to with my in-laws (they cause me anxiety). So keep me in your thoughts as I try to get my mo-jo back with the weight loss!

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  • JENNY160
    Your new family member looks as if s/he needs a few doggie pounds to cover her/his ribs a bit. Poor little guy/gal (I didn't peek underneath). At least he has a loving home now!
    1842 days ago
    So glad you made it through January! This journey is a long and hard one, with ups and downs, but we just have to keep going :) You sound like you're ready for February! Awesome about your new addition to the family. I wish I could find that yogurt around here!! Jealous, lol.
    1844 days ago
    I hear ya sister. While the wedding and all that was a positive and enjoyable, it took a toll on my health and healthy lifestyle. I too am just getting back into it slowly and trying to ge my MoJo back. LOL WE CAN DO IT. keep the faith.
    1844 days ago
  • CAMAEL100
    January I think is a hard one for everyone. I think I lost the weight I put on over Christmas and you out on the weight you lost over Christmas!!! emoticon

    And, think if you hadn't lost that weight over the holidays, you would be even more now! So I would look at it as a net success!!

    Great to have a new start on a lot of fronts. It keeps life exciting and moving ahead. You will get your mojo back, it is not very far away!! It certainly was around in December!! You have come a long way and have learnt a lot, you will get there!!
    1844 days ago
  • STODD251
    Such a cute dog!

    I also started out January with the best of intentions and got side-tracked by life situations, but thank God we've got a fresh slate now for February. Time to get back into gear and do things right.

    As long as you plan for it, you can make it through all the stuff you have planned. The more detailed the plan, the better... and give yourself plenty of good back up plans in case things change from what you expected.
    1844 days ago
    Awesome news about the job and exam, ADORABLE dog, and hooray for welcoming February!
    As a possible replacement for your wonderful dopamine soup, I'd suggest giving some vitamin D and possibly a full spectrum light a try. They're both treatments for people with Seasonal Affective Disorder, and whether or not you have it (I don't, but have a close friend who does), they just might cheer you up. Being around Kyle's light always seems to give me added energy and a bigger smile.
    Just a thought!
    1844 days ago
    I Really want to try that oragnge ginger yogurt! I am glad that things are looking up for you. Coongrats on the new job! Remeber though, you didn't loose your mo-jo, it just hid under fudge soup and anxiety for a few weeks. Whip it out and lets get at it! Yoga? emoticon
    1844 days ago
    Oh, how cute, congrats! Love her name, she has a sweet face.

    Please try to think back to your strong mind-set you had during Thanksgiving and Christmas. I know you can navigate these upcoming social situations once again with great success.

    I love that type of yogurt, so creamy! That is the only flavor I've tried, really good with pears. I can only find it at Central Market.
    1844 days ago
    You got this stay strong girl!!!
    1845 days ago
    From the pictures, the dogs look like siblings. What a great pair.

    emoticon job passing the test. I hope the new job is all you expect, and more.


    You'll do fine. emoticon
    1845 days ago
  • RUDITUDI2000
    I agree...good riddance to January. Cheers to a great February! I will be praying for you through all the changes & events...
    emoticon on new job & exam. emoticon
    1845 days ago
    I am so psyched (no pun intended) you got the new job!
    Congrats too on passing the exam, it's not easy.
    I love your new baby...just a sweet little soul, you can see it in her eyes. She'll be spoiled rotten!
    I really think January is the worst. Hopefully with all this new activity ahead it will get you going in the right direction!
    1845 days ago
  • KONRAD695
    Amen to Jan gone!! I'm so with you on that, gained and lost weight twice, got to have a nice ER visit, and will finish with an ice cream bloated stomach. emoticon emoticon

    Back to you, emoticon emoticon on the new job and passing your exam. Happy for you and the rescue dog. He's thin like my Rusty was, but I'm sure his new mommy will take care of that.

    I have an idea. Print off the cake section of Eileen's response, and read it every time you think of any temptation. If someone insists you have dessert, then ask to take it home. Give to in laws as a gift. (you know,soften them up) Or sneak a bottle of wine from spaghetti night and use that to soften them up.

    I'm confident you will do fine. emoticon there are great possibilities in your future and you'll reach every one of them. emoticon
    1845 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/30/2013 7:35:22 PM
    YOU have a GREAT attitude for February! You're going to make it!!! And look at your fur babies! They do love one another! What joy you'll have with the two of them!! Congrats on your job and your exam!!! Keep rockin' those professional goals!!!
    1845 days ago
  • EILEEN828
    Hooray, hooray! Congratulations on your exam. Of course that's a load off your mind and straight after your interview, too. Those are big, wonderful accomplishments, give yourself the biggest sunniest smile in the mirror and pat yourself on the back for a job well done. emoticon I love your new dog too. How on earth are you going to tell the twins apart? LOL The yogurt sounds delish! I'd buy that too if I saw it. emoticon Enjoy your up coming events, more than likely they'll go very smoothly and you'll have fun. As for that cake, emoticon if your plan is to not eat it, then I'd suggest to try your best to not stare it in the eye, and if it actually manages to mesmerize your gaze then think of the worst tasting, grade B cake you ever tasted. You know the one, it looks pretty enough but tastes flavorless and dry and the icing tastes like you're eating shortening and chemicals. I don't even want to think about what the colors are doing to your gut. Make sure to drink a lot of water first too. Any trick you know to be full first. Then give it your evil eye and say, "Not this time, baby, I'm on a roll!" emoticon Best of Luck! emoticon
    1845 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/30/2013 5:46:47 PM
    Wow! Lots going on in your life right now. Congratulations on the new job and passing your exam. And welcome to your new pet! What a fun way to end the month on a happy note. Hope she brings you lots of joy! emoticon
    1845 days ago
    Adorable dogs!! So glad you rescued the new one. I have two and they both are rescued. They have some issues: one is a little dominant and testy around strange dogs, and the newest one is scared of men, people on bikes, little boys. They'll never be dog park dogs, but we don't care! They get along fantastically and they both have big smiles, making me think they realize how lucky they are!

    Glad to hear about your new job!

    You have done so well, and you'll do it again!

    (By the way, I now know that one decent piece of birthday cake has about 900 calories!!! ) I had three pieces of my husband's early this month, not binging, slowly, at meals one S day, and I was thinking I had eaten about 900 calories in sweets that day. Later when I entered it in the tracker, it was 900 each!!!! Not a binge, but a big mistake! My husband said: "Couldn't you tell how rich it was? Doesn't that make you sick after a little?" Of course, no, it didn't seem too rich emoticon . Big lesson learned! Also, fighting the feeling I had failed, even though I had not, at least in terms of eating my allowed sweets on S days and eating them sanely. Fortunately everything I have learned on SP helped me put it all straight in my mind. This is all a MIND GAME, really, ISN'T IT?
    1845 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/30/2013 5:34:56 PM
    January is like that for me too. I crash after all the hyper activity and effort of the holidays. I am looking forward to February too!

    Congrats on the new job and dog adoption. She looks like a sweetheart.

    Hang in there!
    1845 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/30/2013 5:28:26 PM
  • ROCKMAN6797
    February will be yours!
    January was a struggle for me, too, but I am going to shine in February, so lead the way!

    1845 days ago
    I ceratinly sympathize with post-holiday blues. I have been off track most of the last half of January.

    Stress can do it for sure.

    If you haven't had birthday cake in a long time, it might smell yucky to you. I found this out after getting off sugar. It smelled so sweet it was sickening.

    Hope things level out. The new dog is adorable just like the original one! Love the pics of them motoring through the yard! So funny! Glad you saved her1 She looks thin for now but sure the love will get her back to health!
    1845 days ago
    Well, you made it through to February, Congratulations! Onward and upward, or downward, as the case may be. It sounds like you are anticipating some stressful situations coming up, so maybe you can work your way around them...you are doing a great job, hang in there...good luck and congrats on your new job. emoticon
    1845 days ago
    Sounds like your doing much better now! Way to go on the new job & passing your entrance exam! You should be very proud! Hold your head up high at your upcoming functions you've done well for yourself, your beautiful & enjoy girlfriend!

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    1845 days ago
    I think January is hard for everyone - its so cold and dark that if you're feeling down at all that is amplified. It sounds as if you have come through this recently and are sticking to your SP plan despite set backs - that is in itself an achievement. I have been finding it hard to keep to my calories for the last two weeks and I realised its not the food's fault - I have to just stop eating things I know I shouldn't. That said - I also shouldn't give myself a hard time. We all do this sometimes and its ok!
    Congratulations on your job and exam! Your new dog (and your old one) looks cute - I hope you have fun keeping up with them both
    1845 days ago
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