Happy Wednesday, my dear friends!!
Yesterday my hubby and I got in quite the tiff. We are both approaching the healthy lifestyle change differently. We both started last January, both joined the gym and started working out a few months after. We had both lost 20+ pounds by September. But, after that things got busy and we both got off track. Somehow through the last few months I have maintained my weight and he gained almost all of his back.
Anyway, back to what caused the argument. We were out at dinner and I was being good but somehow in his mind my being good with my calories means I am not having a good time. Of course, as fights go, this is not where it ended. It blew up into him saying things like "why can you eat that when you can't eat this" and "I can't be someone who obsesses over 20 calories" (which, by the way, I do not!) and "I don't know why you are doing this. I love the way you look". So, I started thinking about things.
I am pretty close to where I want to be. But, where exactly do I want to be? And what am I going to do to get there? Why am I still not happy with the way I look?
First of all, I am still working on my body because I want to get into my new size 4 pants. Okay, I can get in them. But I can't sit all day in them and not have them dig into my stomach. I feel like crap everyday that I get dressed for work right now. All of my work clothes are WAY too big and I look like a blob who's @$$ is melting off. I want to feel good when I go to work! I hardly ever see anybody outside of the office, so it's not to look good for anyone... it's for me to FEEL good with how I look. I don't want to go out and buy new pants in a size that I don't want to be for the rest of forever. I want to fit into the wardrobe I started a few months ago. I am right there. I am so close - just not quite there.
So, to answer the questions above - I want to be in my new clothes. I am going to be diligent with my nutrition and workouts to get there. I am not happy with my clothes and my daily appearance because of said clothes. I just want to look put together and not like a slob!
Now that I have put that out to the world... onto something more fun and exciting!
Today I had a NSV....... you ready for this??
I DID MOST OF MY ST IN MAN'S WORLD (aka FREE WEIGHT AREA)!!!!!!!!!!!!!
If you follow my blogs, you know that just a couple short weeks ago I was worried about doing my new workout ANYWHERE in that gym. Up until now I would re-arrange the exercises so I could get all of them done in the free weights area that needed to be done, then get out of there.
What got me to venture into that testosterone filled land?? Well, It is the last week of my first 4-week phase and I looked ahead to the next phase and there are more exercises that will require me to get into the free weights area. I decided I might as well start getting to know that area better now, so that I don't feel so out of place when I get to the next phase. Today, I did 6 of my 8 exercises in there, even though 1/2 of them could have been done anywhere else. It felt great! Since I go early in the morning it is not at all busy in there - and I'm always seeing the same people. It was actually not bad at all once I got over there! No waiting for anything - taking over a small area to myself - and just getting it done!
So, there we go - an argument that shed some light on my ultimate goal, and a non-scale victory! I'd say it makes for a decent Wednesday! How about everyone else? Any NSV's out there??