Wednesday, January 30, 2013
I've been sick for the last several days, but the reaction from those around disappointed me, but it isn't a new one. In various situations in my life I've been unhappy with reactions especially from my children and my husband. I'd get angry wondering how they could be so selfish especially towards me when I've always tried to model a loving and giving spirit. Anyway back to this morning... it started rough with my son calling me a name when I just wanted something simple from him. Then it was weigh in day with my sister and I was only down 1 pound. I was so discouraged and frustrated because I've changed so many bad habits. I won't lie, I said to myself "is it really worth it?", but my sister started telling me maybe it's just time to stop worrying about everyone else and just take care of me. Maybe she's right I remember thinking to myself. I started reading blogs from other spark participants. One titled "I'm in denial" really struck a chord with me. What am I in denial about? While thinking on things suddenly in my mind I hear... Why do you expect them to care about you when you don't care about yourself? I'm not saying that what my son said was ok, nor am I saying that I feel it's right that I was so sick and no one could be bothered to take care of me. What I am saying is if I don't make myself important why should anyone else view me as important? Isn't it Dr. Phil that says " You teach people how to treat you"? Maybe it's time to give this some thought and start towards some (more) action.