Failing... to win!
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
I've been thinking a lot lately. You know... all the emotionally negative stuff: I always screw up, etc., etc., etc. I'll never make it, I always fail at it... I don't have to tell you guys about this! BUT, then I began to think about something I just read from someone I respect and admire who said that it doesn't matter if we make mistakes because as long as we judge them and keep moving we get further down the road. Mind you this wasn't a weight loss inspiration speech either... But at least in my case, I realized it is so true for life and for my weight loss experience as well!
In 1998 I weighed 305, 110 pounds more than I do now (195), and in the ensuing 15 years I've failed so many times and took time off and even gained some from time to time but the goal has always been in my sights even if others couldn't see that it was for me. Actually looking at the "road" I realized that I sort of stair stepped it downward. I would lose initially 50 pounds and then take a break (because I failed to continue I would berate myself then) and then perhaps gain 20 pounds back - but you know what that is a net loss of 30! Then I would repeat the process perhaps 6 months or a year or even two years later. Losing chunks of weights and then get settled into it.
Currently being back in onederland (for the first time since I graduated from college in 1976) is wonderful and I have the last bit of my journey from 220 downward to thank to Shane Diet Resorts who taught how to exercise (and who introduced me to Sparkpeople!) - I lost all that I did till then without exercising... - and to an ex-student of mine who is a personal trainer and took me on to help me get through a nasty plateau. She took me to levels of endurance that I thought I couldn't achieve (she actually trains athletes and is one herself...) and let me know that I love strength training and that I need it for my arthritic knees to keep them strong and pain free. It is true. With a combination of losing weight exercise and a couple of therapies from my orthopedist what I thought was imminent knee replacement surgery has been put on hold for an indeterminate number of years - I don't the have the pain any longer!
Anyway, it was just a thought that I wanted to share with all of you about what our head says (I failed) versus what the FACTS are (I've lost 110 pound). Still looking to lose at least another 30 pounds and then the rest is just if I want to go further or if I am pleased where I am.