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Wednesday, January 30, 2013

At the beginning of this week I was 229.2lbs. I wasn't working out as often as I should and I def could have been making healthier choices! This past weekend something "clicked" for me. If I wanted this bad enough....I have to be willing to put in the work. I have to make the extra effort to see change! Just doing enough to "get by" isn't going to give me the results I want! I have to be consistent and realistic. The weight isn't just going to magically melt off in a week no matter how hard I exercise....

My friends and family can't do it for me. I have to have the dedication to myself. It's going to be a daily struggle and I know at times I will want to throw in the towel but I am focusing on the person I was just 2 summers ago. Healthy. Fitness Oriented. High Energy. Motivated. In Shape. Dedicated. 173lb!!! This facts of my not so distant past may seem depressing to some however its inspiring to me. It means I CAN do it. I HAVE done it. I just need to look inside myself and find the courage to keep going.

I personally, have found that lately I can't do a scheduled workout program. I can't schedule my workouts 30 days in advance or even a week in advance. It just doesn't work for me. I end up getting burn out and discouraged and ultimately quitting. I like my workouts to be spontaneous. Whatever I feel like that day. Jogging. Walking. Treadmill intervals, Turbo Jam. Walk Away the Pounds. Elliptical. I have found that by doing this I am much more consistent! I have worked out 5 out of the last 6 days! For me that's huge as just a few weeks ago I was struggling to do 2-3 days a week. My workout time varies as it depends on my mood. I tell myself I have to make it to at least 20 minutes. If I want to quit of that..;fine. I rarely do tho. In fact last nights was 45 min!

So am I bummed that I didn't lose more this week? Well sure I am...but that isn't going to stop me from doing what I have been doing. Its not going to derail me or cause me to sabotage my efforts. I will move forward. I will press on.
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    You're doing GREAT!!!! This really inspired me, because I'm at around 228-230 (depending on what I ate that day) and I feel like I've hit a wall and won't lose any more. But hearing from you that you are where I'm at and have lost more I'm inspired. We just have to emoticon because emoticon !!
    1845 days ago
    Great insight! emoticon
    1847 days ago
    Charity, this sounds like the dance of life to me sweetie. You have a wonderful support system in place on multiple levels and while you are on a shared journey with many, it is not an identical journey. You are so right that no one else can do this for you. We can support you and cheer you on and love you. Nor should our training plans and programs or even goals be YOUR blueprint. What works for me or Amy or Dolly or _____ isn't going to work best for you at this stage and season of YOUR journey. While there are a bajillion books and articles all telling us the "just right" way to do it; we know that no one works for all. So whatever works best for YOU is the right goal and plan and program for YOU and it may not remain the right one for YOU for always because we are not static beings. Good thing cuz that would be so boring! Go for it sweetie - sounds like you are figuring it out and know what is best for you today.You don't listen to every piece of advice every pediatrician gives you for YOUR girls do you? Because YOU know their nuances. Well you know YOU too. Bring it Charity! Gather up your DVDs and if you feel like a little Chalene today and a bit of Zumba (for instance) tomorrow - go for it. If you feel like putting on those running shoes and heading down the road, for a bit - got for it. Move it and have FUN doing it. The only person you should compare yourself to is who YOU were yesterday. We love you girl! emoticon
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    Comment edited on: 1/30/2013 2:06:45 PM
    I know you can do it!!! emoticon emoticon
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  • COOP9002
    Looks like you've had a breakthrough. You can do this!!!
    1847 days ago
    you can do it charity

    1847 days ago
    I loved reading this exerpt from your blog! How inspiring you are! Don't be bummed about not losing more this week! I have found that if you just wait out the time, that as long as you know you have done well about staying on track with eating and exercising, that 'all of a sudden' it will show up! Please know and remember that, and DO NOT let the scale dishearten you about your efforts. I have found this out the hard way enough times that I finally will not allow myself to let it bring me down. Too many times, I ended up binging (b/c I figured my hard work was not even showing so why not?!) and that very next day, the scale will have dropped 3-4 pounds (or more!) and I am then mad at myself for having binged!! Keep up the good attitude and the good work!

    You are inspiring me and all who read this! God Bless you! emoticon
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    Comment edited on: 1/30/2013 10:50:12 AM
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