Day 9 - Calories, an internal dialogue
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
I seem to have an issue with Calories, I either eat too few, or to many.
Yesterday I thought I had a perfectly balanced day, Special K for breakfast, meal replacement shake for lunch (super busy day), and a healthy salad, roast salmon and couscous for dinner! I got all high and mighty and shouted (within the confines of my brain) "Yes I can do this!" then I looked at my day and it informed my I had not eaten within my daily range, no this time I wasn't above it, I was below! Like 200 calories below my low end number.
And I know my stupid body, I know that if it's deprived it does dumb things to me... like starvation mode 3.0... things like causing me to gain weight!
It was a moment from hell. It was a devil vs angel shoulder battle royal. Do I eat the extra food?
Angel: Yes, go eat a healthy snack like carrots and celery! Maybe add a bit of peanut butter as a treat since you're low on fats today.
Kalika (Me):We're all out of that... I suppose I could go to the store...
Devil: Are you kidding me? Skip it, you're large enough your body doesn't need those calories, you want to lose weight right? And if you're going out it better be for something WORTH IT.
Angel: Well, you did over eat this weekend, maybe this time your body won't rebel against you and make you want to kick your hormones in their proverbial spleen.
Devil: Or you could splurge! You've eaten health all day, you're sufficient in Protein and Carbs, just go have something fatty and delicious!
Angel: Silence. Well... why don't you try going for a walk and pick up something since you ate all the good stuff in the house?
Me: That sounds logical...
And the winner folks? A Grandee Starbucks 2% hot chocolate. *facepalm
Did I stay within all my ranges yesterday? Yes! Did the Devil win anyways? yes. Did I enjoy the hell out of that Starbucks? HELL YES.
Oh well. Better luck next time. "Yimmy? Can you please go to the store after work and by celery, carrots, apples and berries? Yes dear I know you just bought all that three days ago, yes dear I did eat it all... Darling? Please shut up about how we have crackers and a bag of chips in the cupboard and just do it already would yeah?"